Do I belong here?

Of course you belong here, I could cry at the thought of you disappearing, we understand that you will have to be busy elsewhere soon, but please don't disappear completely. I'm on my phone so this is a rubbish reply, I have another quote to throw at you when I have access to it... 

This was not a summer fling, we need you! x

Lol - this is not a summer fling Spotty, my dear....

the whole month now has been such an experience of self recognition but as you know it can be emotionally draining as well.

i identify a lot with you Spotty.. the lost self buried in its shell, waiting for validation to come out and explore without fear. You are a wonderful woman and are much loved here  -don't forget that!

Speak soon lovely x

Lol - this is not a summer fling Spotty, my dear....

the whole month now has been such an experience of self recognition but as you know it can be emotionally draining as well.

i identify a lot with you Spotty.. the lost self buried in its shell, waiting for validation to come out and explore without fear. You are a wonderful woman and are much loved here  -don't forget that!

Speak soon lovely x

Many years ago and still when I start a watercolour, the notion of bruises in the psyche, the body and the paper are all part of the initial layer of marks.

Broken biscuits, battered people (not mars bars) are all the interesting bits, more truth there. I hope you are asleep and not reading this.

Bruises are beautiful too...we are all wounded warriors my dear. We come home at the end of the day as if we have been on a battlefield.

i had an Aunt who knitted for a fashion designer. I have a quilt upstairs made from every single one of my young girl summer dresses...( now there is a box that needs unpacking), made by my mother, my sister is also one for textiles.

keep shining Warrior. I miss you when you are not here 

try not to fit it too hard...misfits are just as important. A broken biscuit tastes just as good in my cup of tea? 

Loving the quilt idea! Will it be square patches or five sided ones,Don't laugh I once made a quilt,well started it with six sided bits of paper I drew and cut out,hand sewed them together,all old bits of clothing, I also did crotchet,never got the knitting thing,and my cross stitch is quite good to.

You are all lovely individuals and I have got so much confidence by being here,I keep saying how well I do compared to others! But and it is a BIG but,I survive by just going through what is expected.I do suffer but as I get older I just look back and find whatever I need to overcome each issue,I get it wrong sometimes but I always say to myself"no matter how bad it gets?ultimately I could just walk away and be me,no bruises no injuries,basically even at work,nobody actually owns me,I am a being on a huge planet.I'm just trying to fit in.

take care friends,big huggies to all,one at a time blush blush and above the quilt please ladies.

Keep here if you can...we are a bunch of crazy kooks. But I thing we each understand the ups and downs and the stings and bites that life can have. You are all amazing ....happy to be a piece of quilt...but that is a story for another day! 

You fit perfectly Misfit, the more of us in the quilt the richer. x

Ditto Martian Tom, Spotty and Warrior! You are a kind caring lovely person and I would miss you if you  left. But I do understand you have commitments to your family and job and may either not have time or want to move on. But I would very much like you to stay. 

It may be self indulgent to wonder if we belong somewhere but I think most of us have that need. You have encouraged me to stay even tho I feel like it's me that doesn't fit. We are a tapestry or quilt of characters and experience and there would be a big space if you weren't here x

I realise that this is a very self indulgent post with the difficulties that everyone is encountering on a daily basis.

i guess the root of the issue is not wanting to get hurt. when people connect they open up, and then we kind of panic and Spotty hides back into her shell, I put my Harry Potter invisibility cloak on and hide myself i the room that I occupy.

i panic that I cause offence to people, over analyse posts and at times get frustrated that I cannot always find the words to articulate what I want to say....have you ever met an elephant with a tied up trunk?

i really like it here, and everyone is so sweet but I am also conscious that people are vulnerable. We elephants have big feet sometimes.

I can identify with your Spotty slump re: writing and painting, and Lone behind your glass pane looking out into a world that can be a jumble and a swathe of emotion.

after being here as a summer resident I just wanted to take stock, just as  I am doing with my self diagnosis before I return back to work.....looking at ways to going forward but maybe i am just trying to rush things.

big love and hugs to all of you.

I agree with Lone, I'm enourmously moved by you saying sweet caring things but also find it hard to respond. I adore the idea of a scampering elephant. We will find some answers to help eventually I think. For now we have to wade around in the tsunami water rising, but you have find a break to continue your life. The motivation of your son must be huge but please take care of you too. x

"You are a wonderful woman and much loved here" must be an aspie trait as that quote could honestly truly be said about several women on here, You included ele.