How do you feel?

I can often hide being emotionally detached from people, though my close family do spot it.

I have a real problem with animals. I have no feeling of love for any animal. As a child I never had pets, but as an adult with a family we have had pets for the children (And as a sort of secret experiment for myself) but I cannot feel anything towards them. I often feel like I must be a cold / cruel person, though I know this is not the case. I can be like it with people, though not to the same extent as animals.

When pets have died I have watched my children being hugely upset. We have had pet rats and rabbits, and my partners parents and my dad have dogs, and they have all spotted I do not interact with them on the same level as my children do

(I should say my 4 year old is also ASD, and he does interact with animals, but it is more in a following them about rather than caring for them way)

The odd thing is that all my family (Parents split up in differemt places, Sister in America and Brother on his own) all phone me up and use me as their councilor. I do not know if its because I do not have the same emotion, so I am passive and neutral, or that I just don't ever judge them for talking. I find when I am having issues I do not want to speak to any of them, as I know all of their problems and dont want to add to them.

I also find I feel guilty for almost everything. If my partner asks if I ate the last bag of crisps I will go bright red and feel guilty, even though it was not me. I know I wouldnt be a good liar because I can't even tell the truth without looking like I was caught out in a huge lie.

And once in a while I will find I am crying, with no apparent stimulus or emotion going along with it. That can be strange when it happens when I am at work building formulae into a spreadsheet!

I can often hide being emotionally detached from people, though my close family do spot it.

I have a real problem with animals. I have no feeling of love for any animal. As a child I never had pets, but as an adult with a family we have had pets for the children (And as a sort of secret experiment for myself) but I cannot feel anything towards them. I often feel like I must be a cold / cruel person, though I know this is not the case. I can be like it with people, though not to the same extent as animals.

When pets have died I have watched my children being hugely upset. We have had pet rats and rabbits, and my partners parents and my dad have dogs, and they have all spotted I do not interact with them on the same level as my children do

(I should say my 4 year old is also ASD, and he does interact with animals, but it is more in a following them about rather than caring for them way)

The odd thing is that all my family (Parents split up in differemt places, Sister in America and Brother on his own) all phone me up and use me as their councilor. I do not know if its because I do not have the same emotion, so I am passive and neutral, or that I just don't ever judge them for talking. I find when I am having issues I do not want to speak to any of them, as I know all of their problems and dont want to add to them.

I also find I feel guilty for almost everything. If my partner asks if I ate the last bag of crisps I will go bright red and feel guilty, even though it was not me. I know I wouldnt be a good liar because I can't even tell the truth without looking like I was caught out in a huge lie.

And once in a while I will find I am crying, with no apparent stimulus or emotion going along with it. That can be strange when it happens when I am at work building formulae into a spreadsheet!