is there a point to life?

something that has been with me a while is that i want to take my own life because i feel that there is now futre for me people have said that i shouldn't talk like this but i still want to the only thing that is kepping me alive is that i want to tell her how i feel about her but i do not know how to tell her

I love her by the way and have for about a year or so

The Major

  • The reason I say that is because shes 40 something anyway and no I don't think she knows I mean I have not told her as I don't know how I hope I can stay in touch with her but I not sure if she would want to stay in touch with me what would you say if you where her? The Major
  • Is she aware of how you feel? Is it possible to stay in touch at all?

  • Ok well the thing is that I will be leaving school in a few months now and the fact is that is that she did work with me a one point in my younger life a high school, she always kept me going and was always there and now that I am leaving soon I fear that I will not see her again she never gave up on me she was and is at the moment still there sometimes at break but I don't want to leave her behind Not telling anyone my age but I have seen most of the problems that gave way for the systems we have now for dealing with people with ASD and AS The Major
  • Hi Major,

    I don't think anyone would ever ignore the very serious barriers faced by people on the spectrum, yourself included.

    I thought it might be helpful if you explained about the person you feel is the only possibility for you to find happiness. You've mentioned her a few times and people may be curious as to why you wouldn't be able to make a similar connection with someone else again, or why this person is about to leave your life?

    Without understand that I think people may be finding it difficult to respond to what makes your situation unique, as everybodies is.

  • ok the point is that with all the problems people with ASD and AS face in the world today i wonder is it worth living for i mean the NAS has said it themself many times with campains but then problems ocour that stop progress we were so close to job rights and then bang 2008 and thing have to stop because everyone is having job problems i thought nothing of it then but soon it wil affect me and soon i will lose the only light in my life that beining her of cource and with all these problems i cant see a reason to keep on living

    sorry for the long post/rant

    The Major

  • Hi Major,

    I'm wondering if it might be helpful for you to discuss the situation you're facing in a little more detail. I realise this is obviously something causing you a great deal of upset but it may be easier for people to respond with any advice or support if they understand more?

  • That is sadly just the way life is sometimes I don't understand why but it just is I know I have had a bad few years but I still wonder is she just testing me I do not know I hope i can keep in touch with her after I lose her The Major
  • I know how u feel every women I ever loved left me it hurts so bad don't it the trouble is u give them everything then they leave yeah
  • If I lose her which I am going to in a few months she will be my second and I am close to being like you I don't know if I will ever see her again I don't think I will which makes me sad and upset I will soon have lost every woman which means everything in my life The Major
  • I couldn't. Advise you sorry last person to ask I lost every women that ever meant anything to me
  • my life has been a long and you could say painfull one and somtimes looking for that point in life can be a hard one i say this because soon i may never see her again and i do not know how i will cope without her she has been the major point in my life and soon i will lose her for good i dont want that to happen but what do i tell her i do not know

    what should I tell her?

    The Major

  • It is hard not being understood and worst still being an outcast if like me you have wanted something all your teenage years and it is still the one thing that would make your life complete and other people have it you feel let down betrayed by life
  • I wish I could tell you the answer to that question I really do but sadly I can't I geues there are people out there who just want to make our lives hell because they don't understand who and what we are One day she will save us all from our hell and put things right for good The Major
  • Life is hard I agree but should it be harder for us than everybody else
  • Some people would say that's life but I say we should find life easy and life should be easy and not hard They don't find life hard so why should we? The Major
  • To major I know just how you feel after having my heart broken twice I don't feel no one will ever love me the pain hurts constantly each day so sometimes I don't get out of bed I have tried dating sites no one answers me i tried dating clubs don't work I come to think I may be just. Not worthy to anyone I'd do anything to have a caring loving girlfriend but no ones intreasted
  • ok i'd just like to say thanks to everyone for all the help/advice you have all given me a lot to think about by the way i don't take pills for anything at the moment and i dont want to start but thanks for the idea

    once again thanks

    The Major

  • Sounds like you are having some positive thoughts.  Build on them to give you strength and tomorrow morning contact a support group to help you on your journey.  Don't dismiss medication to help you too.  I'm on permanent medication for depression.  It has transformed my life but cognitive therapy has also helped a lot too.  It is a question of thinking differently and changing your outlook.  It is a challenge but it can be done.  

  • I think that the only thing I need now is someone to point me in the right direction I don't know about the future but I will find that out when it happens Sorry for the late post The Major
  • Sometimes our pain is transient.  Have you thought about going to the doctor to get anti-depressants.  They work wonders.  Give yourself an aim - something that will improve an aspect of your life and work towards it.

    Sometimes we have a lot of good things in life as well as bad things. Try to think about all the positives and focus on them instead of the negatives.

    Suicide is permanent, but unhappiness might not be.