Asperger's is becoming an obsession for me.

So since I was young I always knew I was different. I didn't start talking until a lot later than other kids, I always struggled with social interactions, and there are a great many reasons why I recently have come to the belief that I have always had aspergers (I'm a 27 year old man to provide context). As I have got older I have learned many of societies rules, and I think I actually function pretty well now, at least on the outside, on the inside I feel like I am constantly managing an array of filters, filtering what goes in (at least trying to) and filtering what goes out so I don't inadvertently offend or upset someone. It's tiring...

Anyway, I realise that what I am doing most likely isn't helpful, but I feel I have to do something. I think I've become a bit obsessed with Aspergers, I've read a load about it and watched hours of videos, I always do this, when something interests me I spend hours studying it, I can't break out of it, it's like I'm drawn to it. It's one of the many things that makes me think I have Aspergers, but now it appears that Aspergers is the focus of my current obsession.

The issue is that now I have studied things I have reached the point that I am almost totally convinced I fit the bill, so much so that I now make most things fit, I can't be sure that this is what I am doing, or if things actually do fit and I'm just recognising it, I also have a problem where when I believe something I can find a tremendous amount of supporting evidence, I have done this before and later been proved to be wrong, so I accept that is a possibility in this instance.

Does anyone have any advice for me?

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  • Thanks for that Alexander,

    This certainly gives me some things to think about, I really don't know if my under-developed emotional capacity is a result of not feeling enough love and attention when I was younger, or if the lack of feeling love and attention when I was younger was due to my under-developed emotional capacity. I suppose the cause doesn't really matter.

    That is a good point you make about solving people's problems. I think I maybe worry about things too much, I get stuck calculating all the possible outcomes of things. Trying to relax and go with the flow is difficult. I will make an effort to get some social contacts.

    The part of the Email you shared is like poetry, it's very good, congratulations to whoever wrote it.

    Regards,

    Forest

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  • Thanks for that Alexander,

    This certainly gives me some things to think about, I really don't know if my under-developed emotional capacity is a result of not feeling enough love and attention when I was younger, or if the lack of feeling love and attention when I was younger was due to my under-developed emotional capacity. I suppose the cause doesn't really matter.

    That is a good point you make about solving people's problems. I think I maybe worry about things too much, I get stuck calculating all the possible outcomes of things. Trying to relax and go with the flow is difficult. I will make an effort to get some social contacts.

    The part of the Email you shared is like poetry, it's very good, congratulations to whoever wrote it.

    Regards,

    Forest

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