Having a difficult time

Hi,

I am in a really bad way at the moment, I get these really deep spells with my anxiety and depression. What is triggering it is something I am sure many will find trivial, but I just can't settle myself.

My social worker gave me goal of selling some things. There were a couple of things I purchased earlier in the year, but lost receipt. Anyway I thought I was ask the store to see if they would give me a credit note. From a lengthy discussion over email, I was told manager agreed to give credit note at lowest price which I asked to confirm in an email.

When I returned them to the store, the manager was awkward, so I came pre-prepared with printout of the email, as I know I would find it difficult. She asked me when I bought them, I said with past three months. So she then decided to deduct a further value because of some promotion which was on which I never used.

It really affected me badly, and I didn't know what to do. I was furious, then I decided the price was too low and to leave it. Then I discovered the manager when she checked the item had not been careful handling them, and had holed the box of the back of one item. I collect these and condition is critical, I carefully placed both on the desk to check.

I asked if they would replace that set, but was refused. I didn't know what to do, in the end I felt I had no choice but to accept the lower value. I was so angry because I had gone to great lengths to check everything with customer services before hand, and they had already discussed it with this manager who responded I would receive credit for lowest value, which I asked her to confirm.

She made some odd comment that I was not giving her much information, but I had explained everything in an email in great detail.

I am worried about how deeply this had affected me, after leaving the store, I went to do my grocery shopping. At one point I felt like I was just going to collapse. I just got more anxious and couldn't cope. I drove home, just shouting all the way back, and didn't realise until it was too late that I was in a speed camera area, and was driving at wrong speed, just after i passed camera.

I know this is something trivial to a lot of people, I have many other problems which are more serious. I can logically see that, but my feelings are totally disjointed.

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  • Hi,

    Thanks for the support, I decided not to go Tommorow in the end, it helps to hear from others. 

    Yes, I am stuggling with eating at the moment. I have discussed it with my gp, he doesn't seem to be concerned. Hopefully it is a side effect of the Mirtazepine, as it started around same time. We reduced the dose a few weeks, which improved my diet slightly, but has taken a turn in the other direction this week, after I stopped taking mirtazepine early this week.

    I am just about having breakfast most days, rarely have lunch, and now skipping a fair number of evening meals. I couldn't cope with a cooked meal every day at the moment, have had 2 cooked meals this week.

    I like rice and potatoes, but find I am very sensitive to texture and have a limited range of foods that I can eat. Just about enough range to cover a healthy diet; although my diet is far from healthy, just trying to eat to get enough energy. I have a particular problem with bread, it has to be just the right texture and very fresh. 

    For some time I have been struggling with arranging and preparing food, particularly supermarkets. I have to visit several times a week, and there are times I would leave with nothing, even when I have nothing to eat at home. At the time I think, oh I will have to get a take away, but rarely follow that up.

    The autism team pick this up, and relate it OCD rather than anything to do with autism, apart from the stress in supermarkets from other people.

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  • Hi,

    Thanks for the support, I decided not to go Tommorow in the end, it helps to hear from others. 

    Yes, I am stuggling with eating at the moment. I have discussed it with my gp, he doesn't seem to be concerned. Hopefully it is a side effect of the Mirtazepine, as it started around same time. We reduced the dose a few weeks, which improved my diet slightly, but has taken a turn in the other direction this week, after I stopped taking mirtazepine early this week.

    I am just about having breakfast most days, rarely have lunch, and now skipping a fair number of evening meals. I couldn't cope with a cooked meal every day at the moment, have had 2 cooked meals this week.

    I like rice and potatoes, but find I am very sensitive to texture and have a limited range of foods that I can eat. Just about enough range to cover a healthy diet; although my diet is far from healthy, just trying to eat to get enough energy. I have a particular problem with bread, it has to be just the right texture and very fresh. 

    For some time I have been struggling with arranging and preparing food, particularly supermarkets. I have to visit several times a week, and there are times I would leave with nothing, even when I have nothing to eat at home. At the time I think, oh I will have to get a take away, but rarely follow that up.

    The autism team pick this up, and relate it OCD rather than anything to do with autism, apart from the stress in supermarkets from other people.

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