Workplace bullying

There are many issues around my being bullied  work.  But yes, I know the manager wants me to 'toe the line' and do things her way which is chaotic and stressful.  Unfortunately I can no more 'toe the line' and put all the criticisms behind me and work in her chaotic way than I could grow another arm if my hands were full. Problem is, my belief that  her way is wrong is very strongly embedded, and that combined with everything else is a firework awaiting the lighting of the blue touch paper - well probably more like a full blown display with plenty of bangs and flashes. 

I was Tuped over from the NHS last year to another organsiation (part of commissioning process) and I think that is as far as I can say about who I work for within the policies of the employer. For the NHS I worked in a data management capacity but was Tuped over to a totally different job, in Admin, despite me raising my concerns as to how I would react to this.  My manager is not interested in hearing my opinion of how the job could be done more efficiently even though I have a very workable idea of improving the work rate and accuracy, she said she couldn't give a damn (but using a word a bit stronger than that).

I feel I have been demoted at a time of life where many have attained their pinnacle.  I am totally demotivated and wonder what I am there for as my skills are not being utilised.  When told to do a task I was not given enough time to check my work afterwards (constant interruptions made me lose track of what I was doing and I was off on holiday for a week later that same day) and then when a small easily corrected mistake was picked up on my return, the manager made her remark about me having dementia which was affecting my performance!  I have been off with anxiety and depression caused by workplace stress ever since.

Yes I am in a Union and they have been helpful but unfortunately the policies for dealing with grievances are always loaded towards the employer.  I have to approach the team bully and ask her to desist as a first step.  I turn into a gibbering idiot even at the thought of that.  And taking this further, there is some sort of 'pseudo court' (my interpretation) where there is an opportunity to explain what has happened under cross examination.  In such situations, I have trouble communicating viva voce and my mind goes absolutely blank - if you were to ask me what two and two added up to I would be hesitant (which is interpreted as being untrustworthy by those in management). 

Basically I feel the whole system sets me up to fail!  And then I think that they think I blame anyone but myself for the problems,  which is their way of supporting their managers who are rarely criticised for their behaviour.  The real problem is foresight and insight, or lack of it by management, rather like the old proverb 'For want of a nail a shoe was lost' with all its repercussions.

There are many issues around my being bullied  work.  But yes, I know the manager wants me to 'toe the line' and do things her way which is chaotic and stressful.  Unfortunately I can no more 'toe the line' and put all the criticisms behind me and work in her chaotic way than I could grow another arm if my hands were full. Problem is, my belief that  her way is wrong is very strongly embedded, and that combined with everything else is a firework awaiting the lighting of the blue touch paper - well probably more like a full blown display with plenty of bangs and flashes. 

I was Tuped over from the NHS last year to another organsiation (part of commissioning process) and I think that is as far as I can say about who I work for within the policies of the employer. For the NHS I worked in a data management capacity but was Tuped over to a totally different job, in Admin, despite me raising my concerns as to how I would react to this.  My manager is not interested in hearing my opinion of how the job could be done more efficiently even though I have a very workable idea of improving the work rate and accuracy, she said she couldn't give a damn (but using a word a bit stronger than that).

I feel I have been demoted at a time of life where many have attained their pinnacle.  I am totally demotivated and wonder what I am there for as my skills are not being utilised.  When told to do a task I was not given enough time to check my work afterwards (constant interruptions made me lose track of what I was doing and I was off on holiday for a week later that same day) and then when a small easily corrected mistake was picked up on my return, the manager made her remark about me having dementia which was affecting my performance!  I have been off with anxiety and depression caused by workplace stress ever since.

Yes I am in a Union and they have been helpful but unfortunately the policies for dealing with grievances are always loaded towards the employer.  I have to approach the team bully and ask her to desist as a first step.  I turn into a gibbering idiot even at the thought of that.  And taking this further, there is some sort of 'pseudo court' (my interpretation) where there is an opportunity to explain what has happened under cross examination.  In such situations, I have trouble communicating viva voce and my mind goes absolutely blank - if you were to ask me what two and two added up to I would be hesitant (which is interpreted as being untrustworthy by those in management). 

Basically I feel the whole system sets me up to fail!  And then I think that they think I blame anyone but myself for the problems,  which is their way of supporting their managers who are rarely criticised for their behaviour.  The real problem is foresight and insight, or lack of it by management, rather like the old proverb 'For want of a nail a shoe was lost' with all its repercussions.