Futility of Life

hi,

im not sure if it's my bipolar depression or aspergers taking over but I am struggling to improve in psychodynamic therapy because all I can see is the futility in life.  I'm married without children and too old for them now.  I only really stay alive for my husband, I have a couple of friends who I see occasionally, my parents are alive but I am not on speaking terms with them because they will not accept my diagnoses.   I can't work because I burnt out and find being around people regularly unbearable and anyway, they reject me pretty quickly.  I've never really had a social life or been part of a group, im unable to have special interests because I have no energy or interest in things due to inertia and tiredness perhaps partly caused by meds.  I fail to see what the point of life is as I can't find any meaning to it.  Do others struggle with this?

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  • Gojojo,

    ive experienced these feelings...the futility of life...to become something only to have it taken away by the grim inevitability of death. Im still recovering from depression. I lay in bed a lot not doing much. But im trying to get better.

    The only advice i can give is that to combat this you have to realise that this whole mode of thinking is a sickness. And you need to discard this mode of thinking like you would discard a punctured tire...both will get you nowhere my friend.

    Recognising that this is a type of thinking that drags you down and that needs to be discarded in favour of something more positive is essential.

    my depression has made me cynical, which reinforces my depression and prevents me from adopting positive modes of thinking that would turn my life around. I understand the struggle and despite all this i want a happy life that makes me feel alive and grateful.

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  • Gojojo,

    ive experienced these feelings...the futility of life...to become something only to have it taken away by the grim inevitability of death. Im still recovering from depression. I lay in bed a lot not doing much. But im trying to get better.

    The only advice i can give is that to combat this you have to realise that this whole mode of thinking is a sickness. And you need to discard this mode of thinking like you would discard a punctured tire...both will get you nowhere my friend.

    Recognising that this is a type of thinking that drags you down and that needs to be discarded in favour of something more positive is essential.

    my depression has made me cynical, which reinforces my depression and prevents me from adopting positive modes of thinking that would turn my life around. I understand the struggle and despite all this i want a happy life that makes me feel alive and grateful.

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