Published on 12, July, 2020
I feel like I'm almost alone online. I seem to be surrounded by people with Asperger's who despite this, are able to manage college and university, often are able to work and socialise freely...
In my case, I'm confined to the house most days -- often too scared or just to exhausted to go out. When I do go out it's almost always a frightening and I'm usually on the verge of a panic attack the whole time. (Unless of course I drink until I'm drunk before leaving home).
I read so many stories about what a positive thing autism can be and how we are such a resource to society, but all I see is disability and dependency :(.
You?
Perhaps a lot depends on support . . whether it be from understanding and accepting family and friends or from support agencies.
Hopefully the young ones on the spectrum will be less damaged when they reach adulthood in afew years than I consider myself to be.
I think late diagnosis can mean having lived a very challenging life and the resulting negative effects . Some bruises don't heal and invisible injuries can be disabling too.
However positive you try to be, the world outside remains the same and we are in the minority.
We are all different from each other even though we share autism and we have all had different life experiences.
When I read the posts here from parents who clearly value their children on the spectrum , as do I, I feel a pain in my chest.
Unrecognised autism . . . autism isn't the curse . . . but the reaction to to it can be .
I dream of encountering empathy.