struggling to communicate

I have struggled all my life with talking to people and some days are better than others, today was a bad day for me, had to go see mother in law today for lunch and drop off xmas gifts and for kids to get theirs from their granny.

I have absolutely nothing to say to her, she doesnt like me and dont see the point of small talk, i only went as my husband wanted me there, just zone out completely when they talk about things that i am not apart of, the conversation bores me, i could barely look her in the eye and was had myself turned away from them for most of the afternoon, kids has party poppers and hated the noise, felt myself near to tears at one point as i so want to fit in and be liked. I am undiagnosed but looking at seeing the dr this week to see about some support.

I dont know how to cope with this.

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  • thanks for the comments,made the first step last night in admitting in full to my hubby what happened at his mums, could do this only via email so helped getting it all off my chest, he is being supportive but hoping he doesnt throw this back in my face in the future, made the appointment to see gp and saw him this afternoon, had a huge list of my issues and he is referring me to a phychologist and then they decide if they think i need to be seen, dr knew nothing of autism, confused my aq result with iq, didnt know whether to be insulted by that or not, so hope he does do the referral, take about a month to hear from them i think

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  • thanks for the comments,made the first step last night in admitting in full to my hubby what happened at his mums, could do this only via email so helped getting it all off my chest, he is being supportive but hoping he doesnt throw this back in my face in the future, made the appointment to see gp and saw him this afternoon, had a huge list of my issues and he is referring me to a phychologist and then they decide if they think i need to be seen, dr knew nothing of autism, confused my aq result with iq, didnt know whether to be insulted by that or not, so hope he does do the referral, take about a month to hear from them i think

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