Feelings of rage.

in recent years, i find myself getting very angry of having aspergers.  i've dwelled on it a lot and come to regard it as nothing but a curse, a crippling factor that prevents me being all i should be. what makes me most angry is that i will die. we all will. and there is nothing after we die. every single human gets a single shot at life. just one. no second chances, no option to go around again. and those of us with aspergers, autism, any mental health or physically disabilties, are hampered from the very start. our one chance has been cursed by the capricous fate to be lived in misery, suffering and being a lesser person. theres no justice in that, nothing fair or deserved. i have and will continue to live my life with nerouses i will never overcome no matter how much effort i put in, aspects of my one chance i will never be able to experience, because of the barriers in my own mind. we only have one life on this earth, and not being able to experience all of it is a curse more terrible than anything when you are aware of it. 

to sit here, knowing that oblivion will claim me one day no matter what i do, and that my breif candle flame is burning posioned is something that angers me more than i can bare. 

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  • You need to avoid spiralling anxiety and the accompanying negative reinforcement that this entails. Not easy. But necessary.

    When you start having these feelings you need an interrupt - just enough to break the flow. The most basic is something that hurts enough to interrupt your thoughts, flick your ear, snap your fingers hard, use a rubber band on your wrist and snap it at thepalm side of the wrist. If you keep this up you can substitute a word code.

    With autistic spectrum you have the propensity to focus for long periods on a special interest. OK it depends on how good you are at developing a practical special interest, but just find one and do it often.

    Walking briskly, or running/jogging or other activity at regular intervals in a day, besides keeping you fit, helps to dispel negative thoughts.

    Make good use of music. Find something that helps you unwind rather than something depressing. Get more light indoors if possible.

    None of it at all easy, but ..... necessary

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  • You need to avoid spiralling anxiety and the accompanying negative reinforcement that this entails. Not easy. But necessary.

    When you start having these feelings you need an interrupt - just enough to break the flow. The most basic is something that hurts enough to interrupt your thoughts, flick your ear, snap your fingers hard, use a rubber band on your wrist and snap it at thepalm side of the wrist. If you keep this up you can substitute a word code.

    With autistic spectrum you have the propensity to focus for long periods on a special interest. OK it depends on how good you are at developing a practical special interest, but just find one and do it often.

    Walking briskly, or running/jogging or other activity at regular intervals in a day, besides keeping you fit, helps to dispel negative thoughts.

    Make good use of music. Find something that helps you unwind rather than something depressing. Get more light indoors if possible.

    None of it at all easy, but ..... necessary

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