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Want to quit but should I?

mystmoon

Hey all,

I'm currently nearly a year out of university. After 6 months dealing with JSA bulls*** I finally found a job as a shop assistant in a local convienience store for 3 days a week. However, I've been there 4 months and the stress of the job has me feeling extremely depressed and wiped out.

I have to do a lot of social interaction on the till and with my co-workers, I have to do tasks extremely quickly and then get scolded when I don't complete on time due to my lack of experience and co-ordination issues. They have frequently refused to allow me holiday, and they are njot even sure if I can have the one pre-booked holiday I had before I started there. I also frequently have sensory issues as the uniform has materials that put me on edge and customers often smell or brush their hands against mine and I just want to jerk away violently whenever this happens and go wash!

It's got to the point where I'm struggling to sleep from worrying about having to go and feeling sick and crying in the breakroom. I feel so exhausted from this that I haven't been to properly function in my time off, anmd it's meant I haven't been able to do my hobbies to help me feel any better.

My parents have advised me to stick it out til I can find another job, but I've been so tired that I haven't really been able to apply for any in a decent manner. I hated the JSA, but I don't know if I hate this job more. Really don't know what to do! Help?

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  • I don't know any reasonable diagnosis of 'borderline' - you either are or aren't on the spectrum. Do not accept the 'diagnosis' of a non-specialist - that's all GPs and most psychs.

    In the meantime, I offer this. I spent many years simply failing to understand my thoughts and behaviour, or have any scale of 'normaility' against which to measure the level of severity of my condition. All I know is that everything was like being attacked with sandpaper - sound, touch, taste, smells, the usual total sensory overload.

    Now, I didn't know what was 'normal' or what was 'abnormal' so I guess I assumed it was the same for everyone. This is the common experience of 'not feeling quite right' but having nothing to measure it against. The result was that I was early diagnosed with Bipolar, and they tried shoving all sorts of pills down my throat, none of which, OF COURSE, did me any good. I was considered to be 'uncooperative' and 'not trying to get better' for most of my adult, NT judgementalism impaired, life.

    I 'functioned' in the way that you both describe, but could never sustain it so spent much of my life anxious and depressed, and with so much s**t running through my head that I didn't know which way to turn. I was also very very frightened to tell anyone because I was afraid (justifiably so as it turned out) of what might happen to me if I did.

    However, my GP, God bless her, stuck with me and finally pressed psych services to see me again because she couldn't see Bipolar. Result (after a traumatic incident) was that I got my diagnosis - severe Asperger. Suddenly, my world has an applicable logic.

    Whether or not you are ASD, your employment is covered by general law. I've said it before and I'll keep saying it - join a Union, they will advise you on the law and your rights, help and try to protect you.

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  • I don't know any reasonable diagnosis of 'borderline' - you either are or aren't on the spectrum. Do not accept the 'diagnosis' of a non-specialist - that's all GPs and most psychs.

    In the meantime, I offer this. I spent many years simply failing to understand my thoughts and behaviour, or have any scale of 'normaility' against which to measure the level of severity of my condition. All I know is that everything was like being attacked with sandpaper - sound, touch, taste, smells, the usual total sensory overload.

    Now, I didn't know what was 'normal' or what was 'abnormal' so I guess I assumed it was the same for everyone. This is the common experience of 'not feeling quite right' but having nothing to measure it against. The result was that I was early diagnosed with Bipolar, and they tried shoving all sorts of pills down my throat, none of which, OF COURSE, did me any good. I was considered to be 'uncooperative' and 'not trying to get better' for most of my adult, NT judgementalism impaired, life.

    I 'functioned' in the way that you both describe, but could never sustain it so spent much of my life anxious and depressed, and with so much s**t running through my head that I didn't know which way to turn. I was also very very frightened to tell anyone because I was afraid (justifiably so as it turned out) of what might happen to me if I did.

    However, my GP, God bless her, stuck with me and finally pressed psych services to see me again because she couldn't see Bipolar. Result (after a traumatic incident) was that I got my diagnosis - severe Asperger. Suddenly, my world has an applicable logic.

    Whether or not you are ASD, your employment is covered by general law. I've said it before and I'll keep saying it - join a Union, they will advise you on the law and your rights, help and try to protect you.

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