Autistic rage.

So I have noticed that I have a issue with autistic rage when I am getting disregulated, you want to react violently to stop other people causing you pain and disregulating you. Like a dog barking, a loud exhaust or people talking behind you. For me this is a challenge because its very vivid and what I want to do would get me locked up, but that nervous system response is very hard to process. I need to start punching stuff to release it from my body. I play wheelchair rugby and when I get angry playing its this energy which I am using. Does anyone else have any issues with this? Thanks. 

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  • If I am in a crowd, especially in the streets or outside generally, there is a build up of internal pressure making me want to lash out at people nearby, to create some space around me. I do not do so, but I really feel like doing so.

  • Yeah I want to X people out, its scary because I am not like this at all, its not part of my nature or personality, but I am like so violent in my brain sometimes and its scary. Changed my entire demeanor and thought process too. But now I know why and what it is I can work on it. Its another defense mechanism. For me its when I am driving and stuck in standing traffic, I lose it. 

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  • Yeah I want to X people out, its scary because I am not like this at all, its not part of my nature or personality, but I am like so violent in my brain sometimes and its scary. Changed my entire demeanor and thought process too. But now I know why and what it is I can work on it. Its another defense mechanism. For me its when I am driving and stuck in standing traffic, I lose it. 

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