I am in my 7th decade and have generally felt alone most of my life. Your message made me reflect upon the nature of my loneliness.
Firstly, I generally feel alone surrounded by lots of people, crowds, audiences, etc. because I not connected to them in any way. But, I can also feel very lonely in a 1 to 1 situation; even with partners at times. This is because I am too connected to them and I switch off to be alone.
Secondly, I often choose complete isolation from others to pursue hobbies whilst listening to music or audio books. This is chosen loneliness when I can genuinely relax and feel comfortable in my own skin. I have done this all my life.
Thirdly, this website was mentioned in the information I was given following my recent autism assessment . This has been a big boost to my very low level of being in touch with other people. I like it because I can decide whether and how I want to respond to others. Also, people are as similar to me as I am ever going to find. So, I am certainly not as lonely as I used to be.
I hope you will benefit from being here and perhaps feel little less lonely too.
I can relate to a lot of what you've said. On some level I like time alone, to pursue crafting hobbies. It's a strange feeling then to also feel so alone because of it at times. I guess it's a feeling of a lack of connection with people rather than physically being around others as I can often feel alone in a room full of people or with one other person if I just don't feel I belong. It's confusing to know what to do to feel better about things.
I can relate to a lot of what you've said. On some level I like time alone, to pursue crafting hobbies. It's a strange feeling then to also feel so alone because of it at times. I guess it's a feeling of a lack of connection with people rather than physically being around others as I can often feel alone in a room full of people or with one other person if I just don't feel I belong. It's confusing to know what to do to feel better about things.
