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Do you ever feel ashamed of being autistic?

LivAgain

Hi,

I know it sounds like an awful thing to say and I'm sure it will spark controversy but this is just a question I have never felt able to ask other autistic people and tonight I just thought, "Why not? People are welcome to disagree with me if that's how they feel."

Anyway, I've been having a rough time lately and feel very ashamed of a lot of things. One thing I'm certainly ashamed of is being autistic. Everything about it feels like a threat - a threat to my femininity, to my appearance, to how others will perceive me. It's hard to put into words but it's almost as though the symptoms don't worry me (I don't actually have a great deal of symptoms, really; not nowadays anyway) but the label itself is damaging me more and more every day.

I feel so guilty for feeling like this but I don't want to wonder anymore. Does anyone else feel like this?

Thank you,

LivAgain 

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  • Shame? a little yea, but thats not the main emotion it provokes, because thats anger.

    i hate myself, quite justifiably for every weakness, even if i have been lumbered as i have with this blight, this curse, its no excuse for the failings it causes me to have, there is no excuse for weakness of the mind, it must be fought to be overcome with every action and breath. NEVER do anything to warrant the vindication of people fortunate enough to be born with stable brains, then maybe you can not feel shame. otherwise, live with your curse as best you can, maybe beleive the nonsense about people with aspergers being somehow special (a lie to make us 'feel better') if it gets you through the day.

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  • Shame? a little yea, but thats not the main emotion it provokes, because thats anger.

    i hate myself, quite justifiably for every weakness, even if i have been lumbered as i have with this blight, this curse, its no excuse for the failings it causes me to have, there is no excuse for weakness of the mind, it must be fought to be overcome with every action and breath. NEVER do anything to warrant the vindication of people fortunate enough to be born with stable brains, then maybe you can not feel shame. otherwise, live with your curse as best you can, maybe beleive the nonsense about people with aspergers being somehow special (a lie to make us 'feel better') if it gets you through the day.

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