what do I feel

I had trouble in my training/college programme over the last 2 years because of communication/social difficulties and I was diagnosed a few months ago with Asperers Syndrome and I informed the college. I just started back for my final year and after a meeting last week I have been dismissed from the training programme. I have been working towards this for many years and my chosen career path has now been taken away.

When they told me it was over I didn't know how to react. I just sat there emotionless. This was about 5 days ago. Since then I have not known what to do and I don't know how to express what I feel because I don't know what I am feeling.

I haven't cried, I haven't shouted... just nothing. As if I am empty.

I am not depressed but I am very confused.

This must sound very odd. Has anyone experienced anything similar? Any advice about how to overcome this?

Thanks

T.

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  • recombinantsocks

    I am trying to work out what I should do. I find it very difficult to let go of my plans when they are incomplete. I hate it when something is unfinished and so it is hard to move forward and leave what has happened behind. Yet after serious thought that may be what I need to do. 

    I am hopeful that In some way I can continue to serve my community in areas of Social Justice. This is what I am very passionate about. I don't know what my strengths are but I am well aware of my many weakness'.

    You may be right about saying something is better than nothing but for me that is really hard. I don't talk much at all and so what I do say has significant meaning. If I did say something trivial or meaningless just to fill a gap or quiet moment I would feel extremly uncomfortable. I remember trying it once at college I had heard peers comment on the weather to each other when they enterd student lounge, so I tried it the following week, I thought it may help to feel included in the group. It felt very unnatural but I said "Wow It's cold outside today" and all I got was "Yes it is". The problem was I didn't know where to take the conversation from there. So it was a pointless exercise, but maybe thats something I need to work on.

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  • recombinantsocks

    I am trying to work out what I should do. I find it very difficult to let go of my plans when they are incomplete. I hate it when something is unfinished and so it is hard to move forward and leave what has happened behind. Yet after serious thought that may be what I need to do. 

    I am hopeful that In some way I can continue to serve my community in areas of Social Justice. This is what I am very passionate about. I don't know what my strengths are but I am well aware of my many weakness'.

    You may be right about saying something is better than nothing but for me that is really hard. I don't talk much at all and so what I do say has significant meaning. If I did say something trivial or meaningless just to fill a gap or quiet moment I would feel extremly uncomfortable. I remember trying it once at college I had heard peers comment on the weather to each other when they enterd student lounge, so I tried it the following week, I thought it may help to feel included in the group. It felt very unnatural but I said "Wow It's cold outside today" and all I got was "Yes it is". The problem was I didn't know where to take the conversation from there. So it was a pointless exercise, but maybe thats something I need to work on.

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