what do I feel

I had trouble in my training/college programme over the last 2 years because of communication/social difficulties and I was diagnosed a few months ago with Asperers Syndrome and I informed the college. I just started back for my final year and after a meeting last week I have been dismissed from the training programme. I have been working towards this for many years and my chosen career path has now been taken away.

When they told me it was over I didn't know how to react. I just sat there emotionless. This was about 5 days ago. Since then I have not known what to do and I don't know how to express what I feel because I don't know what I am feeling.

I haven't cried, I haven't shouted... just nothing. As if I am empty.

I am not depressed but I am very confused.

This must sound very odd. Has anyone experienced anything similar? Any advice about how to overcome this?

Thanks

T.

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  • I have found that my inability to talk about emotions has caused problems in the past with treatment for depression and anxiety.

    Doctors have asked me how things were going and I didn't know what to say, so said "OK". This closed the door to support and treatment. I have also had councelling on two occaisions and was written off as unwilling to talk. People get frustrated by my silence, but if there are no words coming to mind, that express what I am feeling, then how can I speak.

    At times it is like being in a glass bubble. I can see people out there, but they are cut off from me.Out of earshot.

    At other times, if I know that other people are aware that I have suffered a misfortune of some kind, then I feel that I am made of glass, and my emotions are obvious, so there is no need to try to put them into words.

    I often know what other people feel, when misfortune strikes, why do they assume that I do not feel anything, just because I stay silent?

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  • I have found that my inability to talk about emotions has caused problems in the past with treatment for depression and anxiety.

    Doctors have asked me how things were going and I didn't know what to say, so said "OK". This closed the door to support and treatment. I have also had councelling on two occaisions and was written off as unwilling to talk. People get frustrated by my silence, but if there are no words coming to mind, that express what I am feeling, then how can I speak.

    At times it is like being in a glass bubble. I can see people out there, but they are cut off from me.Out of earshot.

    At other times, if I know that other people are aware that I have suffered a misfortune of some kind, then I feel that I am made of glass, and my emotions are obvious, so there is no need to try to put them into words.

    I often know what other people feel, when misfortune strikes, why do they assume that I do not feel anything, just because I stay silent?

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