what do I feel

I had trouble in my training/college programme over the last 2 years because of communication/social difficulties and I was diagnosed a few months ago with Asperers Syndrome and I informed the college. I just started back for my final year and after a meeting last week I have been dismissed from the training programme. I have been working towards this for many years and my chosen career path has now been taken away.

When they told me it was over I didn't know how to react. I just sat there emotionless. This was about 5 days ago. Since then I have not known what to do and I don't know how to express what I feel because I don't know what I am feeling.

I haven't cried, I haven't shouted... just nothing. As if I am empty.

I am not depressed but I am very confused.

This must sound very odd. Has anyone experienced anything similar? Any advice about how to overcome this?

Thanks

T.

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  • Hi Tic, I know exactly what you mean. I get into situations which upset me and yet there are no words to express what I feel. I know I feel something, but have no language to explain it to anyone or even to myself. I just feel.

    I have Alexithymia, which is emotional blindness. I know I feel something, but sometimes, not what it is. I have to seek out words, sometimes from other people, to help me identify how I feel.

    If you can find someone else who has had a similar experience, recently, and ask them to tell you about it, you may find this gives your emotion a voice.

    I find that if I let these things pass, they come back to haunt me later in the form of depression. Emotions as intense as yours need an outlet, if only in writing to yourself.

    I feel for you, closed doors are painful. But there is an old saying "when one door closes, another opens. Good luck

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  • Hi Tic, I know exactly what you mean. I get into situations which upset me and yet there are no words to express what I feel. I know I feel something, but have no language to explain it to anyone or even to myself. I just feel.

    I have Alexithymia, which is emotional blindness. I know I feel something, but sometimes, not what it is. I have to seek out words, sometimes from other people, to help me identify how I feel.

    If you can find someone else who has had a similar experience, recently, and ask them to tell you about it, you may find this gives your emotion a voice.

    I find that if I let these things pass, they come back to haunt me later in the form of depression. Emotions as intense as yours need an outlet, if only in writing to yourself.

    I feel for you, closed doors are painful. But there is an old saying "when one door closes, another opens. Good luck

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