“You gotta work hard and just push through”

Yes I do can sympathize and empathize with my friends here at the age of 55 I too was diagnosed with autism fibromyalgia and osteoarthritis but as a single person with out family I have to carry on working despite all of that therefore I do really really struggle with managing my energy levels my commitments and my absolute and I mean absolute total need to sometimes do nothing and I mean literally nothing nothing physically are you either stay in bed or sit on my reclining chair and only listen to an audiobook the reason I listened to the audiobook is to stop my autistic ruminations and thoughts going you can what you've got to do something you owe you can't do this while you're being so lazy blah blah blah all you should do this you should do that oh my god I've forgot on this I forgotten that oh my oh goodness me why am I so lazy why have I got no energy what am I going to do oh no this isn't right why am I like this blah blah blah it's not fair problem do you really need me to tell you everything that goes on no probably not we all overthink we're all anxious we're all stressed it's all part of our autism aspects of it anyway and also as a woman we're conditioned with socially conditioned to be anxious to look at things and to take on that mental load whatever that mental load is if it's families partners work etc etc but like other people on here I too have decided no I am I have to have me time quiet time and nothing time self-care time that is who I am and that is what I need and I'm not unique in that 100% I am not unique in that and again I do feel that the people on here that talked about modernity the fact that it's the modern world that is making this come out is actually quite crucial but again any CBT cognitive behavior therapy any of them will tell you it doesn't matter what your past is you just have to look at the future and how you're going to do with these problems now so yes I absolutely understand your frustration as someone who's been there seen it done it got the t-shirt and I agree with the other people on this thread and a lot of what they've said and a lot of how they feel and a lot of their opinions and a lot of their advice so essentially you just have to be kind to yourself and you just have to shade yourself look I'm gonna manage this this is what I need you know rest brain rest body rest mind rest emotional rest I need those because of who I am it doesn't matter what other people need or how are the people are going to judge me or how the world will judge this this is who I am and this is what I need I got there the hard way too and now actually I think my saving grace was the audiobooks because I'm doing nothing but I'm expanding my mind and stopping my autistic brain going into overdrive and your the audiobooks I've chosen a wide wide varieties so my recipe periods if I want fiction I've got fiction if I want fact I've got fact and if it's something that I've read before or listen to before then I can go back to an old favorite that I know will make me calm you know I think all of us on this thread have been there and done it and got the t-shirt and we can only give you a virtual hug a massive hug as the same people in the same boat and the way that we've worked it out so I really do just want to say you know look after yourself and it's actually perfectly acceptable you know don't care what the world thinks and that is mostly for me the problem with the world is that the world expects us to be on on fast fast do do do and it's not it's not right even for newer typical people never mind autistic people or people on the ASD spectrum just look after yourself please

apologies for grammer, was just trying out speech to text, as my fibro means typing is too strenuous.  Will endeavour to add full stops etc on next outing. 

apologies for grammer, was just trying out speech to text, as my fibro means typing is too strenuous.  Will endeavour to add full stops etc on next outing.