Adhd

I have been living on a high energy life that l have really enjoyed and l never viewed it has a disability.

It's my identity that l am not ashamed of it's who l am .

If l don't function like this then l would never be able to live life because the alternative would be living a life in bed and never doing nothing,it's the way that my brain works for me. I love me. With all my ups and downs.

But having a little knowledge on how to manage it better or just being mindful to other people and how my life looks like to others and when to stop.

Because l have lived a vibrant life of ADHD it has left out other parts of my live that is my own personality to not show through and then l have felt like l am broken.

I have found it hard to find work that's suitable for me , working with other people is very uncomfortable and very scary for me it feels like being closaphobic,l keep looking for the exit sign .

I was always late, got sacked, because l can't organize my life.

Tried climbing bennifits pip but was sent out a letter that said, we do not believe you, so this has caused me more damage and a deeper rejection by society.

 I also struggle with health conditions but no one will believe me.

Because everything is masked by ADHD.

But l am old now and really a diagnose isn't going to help me l spoke with a mental health worker and he said l had symptoms of ADHD and autism and did a online assessment,test.

But l am left frustrated that l have had to cope on my own, always pushing to be excepted it's been a very hard journey of emotional up and downs,what keeps me going is a determination to never give up, but the cost of living with depression and anxiety, so never give up.

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  • I am staying away from the discussion on meds for ADHD - conscious of the "no medical advice" bit of the rules of this forum.

    Instead ( and picking up on the theme from  ) I would like to respond by raising the subject of the Japanese art of "kintsugi" - that of repairing broken pottery by using lacquer dusted with gold, silver or platinum.

    In this process, no attempt is made to hide the damage and its repair.  Instead the process is highlighted as precious.  Furthermore the item is especially treasured.

    I agree.

    never give up - you are not alone in that philosophy    :-) 

    hard tho' it is to not be frustrated, a calm mind allows one to express good technique when not giving up in overcoming the challenges

    best wishes

    Phased

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  • I am staying away from the discussion on meds for ADHD - conscious of the "no medical advice" bit of the rules of this forum.

    Instead ( and picking up on the theme from  ) I would like to respond by raising the subject of the Japanese art of "kintsugi" - that of repairing broken pottery by using lacquer dusted with gold, silver or platinum.

    In this process, no attempt is made to hide the damage and its repair.  Instead the process is highlighted as precious.  Furthermore the item is especially treasured.

    I agree.

    never give up - you are not alone in that philosophy    :-) 

    hard tho' it is to not be frustrated, a calm mind allows one to express good technique when not giving up in overcoming the challenges

    best wishes

    Phased

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