I feel like the world is ending

I'm really struggling at the moment. Going through another lot of autistic burnout. It's negatively impacting my mood and leading me to suicidal thoughts and depression.

My home situation isn't being addressed by the people responsible for it despite asking multiple times. I've been ignored, every, single, [removed by mod], time. The NHS won't provide funding for better equipment and comfort for my situation, one involving gastrointestinal issues. And my sensory issues are treated like a joke. Almost as though they think I'm faking it. I almost had ear drums popped earlier from car tyres that make that really consistent bumping sound. On top of that the current political situations really bother me where it feels like anyone I know that doesn't support the right party is going to kill me. [removed by mod]

I feel like a worthless human being with nothing good to show for myself. Waste of space and talentless. I can't find comfort anyway. It's hard to stay happy. My life is just being ruined. I wouldn't need to ask for help if my local council could help me find/build a small house for me to live in on my own, and Universal Credit/Disability needs to pay me more to address the problems the NHS won't so I can better meet my needs. I feel a lot of despair and grief. 

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  • Hi Jakey,  
    Thank you for posting and telling the community what you are going through. We are sorry to hear that you are currently experiencing thoughts of suicide thank you for sharing your experience with the NHS. It is good that you’ve let us know how you feel. Many people have similar thoughts when coping with so much and we hope you’re okay.     
    If you are unable to cope with the distress or despair, it’s very important to tell someone about your feelings or thoughts of suicide. Call your GP and make an urgent appointment. Your GP can make sure you get appropriate help and support . 
    The National Autistic Society does not currently operate a crisis or emergency service. We advise you to contact 999 or any of the mental health crisis lines listed on our Urgent Help Page if you are at risk of immediate harm: https://www.autism.org.uk/what-we-do/help-and-support/urgent-help  
    If you are not at immediate risk of harm, we would encourage you to speak to your GP or another health professional about this if you haven’t done so already. If it’s outside your GP hours call 111 to reach the NHS 111 service. In England, Wales and Scotland there is now an option to speak with mental health professionals by selecting ‘option 2’ when calling NHS 111: https://www.nhs.uk/nhs-services/urgent-and-emergency-care-services/when-to-use-111/  
    You may also find the following useful:  
    • PALS - The Patient Advice and Liaison Service (PALS) offers confidential advice, support and information on health-related matters. You may like to contact them, information is here: What is PALS (Patient Advice and Liaison Service)? - NHS  
    • Samaritans: Call 116 123 for free, 24 hours a day, 365 days a year.  
    • Mind Infoline: 0300 1233393 for information and signposting (9am to 6pm, Monday to Friday)   
    • SANEline: 0300 304 7000 for anyone experiencing a mental health problem or supporting someone else (4.30pm to 10.30pm, every day)  
    • Campaign Against Living Miserably (CALM): 0800 58 58 58, for anyone who is struggling or affected by suicide or suicidal thoughts (5pm to midnight every day).    
    • Shout 85258: a free, confidential, 24/7 text messaging support service for anyone struggling to cope.  
      We hope this is helpful to you.  
    Take care
    Suzanne Mod
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