I feel like the world is ending

I'm really struggling at the moment. Going through another lot of autistic burnout. It's negatively impacting my mood and leading me to suicidal thoughts and depression.

My home situation isn't being addressed by the people responsible for it despite asking multiple times. I've been ignored, every, single, [removed by mod], time. The NHS won't provide funding for better equipment and comfort for my situation, one involving gastrointestinal issues. And my sensory issues are treated like a joke. Almost as though they think I'm faking it. I almost had ear drums popped earlier from car tyres that make that really consistent bumping sound. On top of that the current political situations really bother me where it feels like anyone I know that doesn't support the right party is going to kill me. [removed by mod]

I feel like a worthless human being with nothing good to show for myself. Waste of space and talentless. I can't find comfort anyway. It's hard to stay happy. My life is just being ruined. I wouldn't need to ask for help if my local council could help me find/build a small house for me to live in on my own, and Universal Credit/Disability needs to pay me more to address the problems the NHS won't so I can better meet my needs. I feel a lot of despair and grief. 

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  • I’m so sorry - that sounds incredible hard. Sometimes it just gets totally overwhelming doesn’t it? Just too much. When I feel overwhelmed I trying to use strategies like grounding techniques, or I go outside for a walk - no matter what the weather is like I find that getting outside calms me down. What things do have that often help to calm your nervous system a bit? I find making something good to eat is often helpful, drinking tea and really focusing on enjoying  the taste of the food and the tea. When everything feels totally horrible I try to find one small thing that I can enjoy (even just a little bit) and really focus on that. There’s no doubt that life is often very hard, and the political situation is pretty dire right now. But there’s not a lot we can do right this minute - here and now - about all the bigger things in this world that are a mess - so right now there’s not much point in dwelling on those things if you’re feeling overwhelmed. Instead try to bring your attention back to anything right in front of you that you can control and enjoy - no matter how simple. The other day I was feeling overwhelmed and I had a waistcoat that needed a small repair doing on it - and just doing a bit of sewing while listening to an interesting podcast really helped me to feel a bit better. Sometimes doing a small, simple task can be really good for overwhelm. We can’t solve all our problems at once, and we definitely can’t solve the world’s political problems, but it can feel stabilising and nourishing to just doing something small for ourselves (or for someone else) that we can take some pleasure from, or some satisfaction from. I really hope you feel better soon, no feeling lasts forever. Many of us experience suicidal thoughts when we feel overwhelmed (I know I have) but it’s always best to just give it time and the intensity of these feels really will start to ease in time. Try to be patient for this feeling to ease - and find something you can do practically to keep you a bit busy while you wait for the intensity to ease. 

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  • I’m so sorry - that sounds incredible hard. Sometimes it just gets totally overwhelming doesn’t it? Just too much. When I feel overwhelmed I trying to use strategies like grounding techniques, or I go outside for a walk - no matter what the weather is like I find that getting outside calms me down. What things do have that often help to calm your nervous system a bit? I find making something good to eat is often helpful, drinking tea and really focusing on enjoying  the taste of the food and the tea. When everything feels totally horrible I try to find one small thing that I can enjoy (even just a little bit) and really focus on that. There’s no doubt that life is often very hard, and the political situation is pretty dire right now. But there’s not a lot we can do right this minute - here and now - about all the bigger things in this world that are a mess - so right now there’s not much point in dwelling on those things if you’re feeling overwhelmed. Instead try to bring your attention back to anything right in front of you that you can control and enjoy - no matter how simple. The other day I was feeling overwhelmed and I had a waistcoat that needed a small repair doing on it - and just doing a bit of sewing while listening to an interesting podcast really helped me to feel a bit better. Sometimes doing a small, simple task can be really good for overwhelm. We can’t solve all our problems at once, and we definitely can’t solve the world’s political problems, but it can feel stabilising and nourishing to just doing something small for ourselves (or for someone else) that we can take some pleasure from, or some satisfaction from. I really hope you feel better soon, no feeling lasts forever. Many of us experience suicidal thoughts when we feel overwhelmed (I know I have) but it’s always best to just give it time and the intensity of these feels really will start to ease in time. Try to be patient for this feeling to ease - and find something you can do practically to keep you a bit busy while you wait for the intensity to ease. 

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