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I feel like the world is ending

Jakey

I'm really struggling at the moment. Going through another lot of autistic burnout. It's negatively impacting my mood and leading me to suicidal thoughts and depression.

My home situation isn't being addressed by the people responsible for it despite asking multiple times. I've been ignored, every, single, fucking, time. The NHS won't provide funding for better equipment and comfort for my situation, one involving gastrointestinal issues. And my sensory issues are treated like a joke. Almost as though they think I'm faking it. I almost had ear drums popped earlier from car tyres that make that really consistent bumping sound. On top of that the current political situations really bother me where it feels like anyone I know that doesn't support the right party is going to kill me. So I should just kill myself then? is that it? 

I feel like a worthless human being with nothing good to show for myself. Waste of space and talentless. I can't find comfort anyway. It's hard to stay happy. My life is just being ruined. I wouldn't need to ask for help if my local council could help me find/build a small house for me to live in on my own, and Universal Credit/Disability needs to pay me more to address the problems the NHS won't so I can better meet my needs. I feel a lot of despair and grief. 

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  • I'm sorry it's really hard for you at the moment, I don't have anything more to help, than hang on and don't let the systems that are letting you down win. Keep shouting at them, and like Hergé, scream into the void when you need to. Reaching out is hard, and if you don't feel heard, that can make it harder the next time. 

    The news is so hard at the moment, and everything is so charged. I keep reading the BBC news site, but it's really depressing at the state of the world. I can't comprehend people not being kind to each, and it's all so negative. I do like looking at the pictures people send in of around Scotland, it's a little bit of joy amongst the sadness.

    Defying the sadness is hard, but you have worth, and I'm glad you could at the very least tell us about how hard it is. It is a really hard thing to do. It's obvious you've been doing it a while, it can be wearing but it's a good thing to do.

    Would you like to talk about anything that could cheer you? I do love your sylveon pic. Though I appreciate if you don't want to. 

  • in reply to Cinnabar_wing

    I can't really override it. It doesn't work. Whatever this feeling of despair and suicidal thoughts are, they override free will. 

    I know the news is tough, that's partially why I'm depressed. UK politics are absolutely out of control and idiots buy what other idiots say. Then the only hope we have is suddenly the devil to them. Exactly the kind of crap that dooms us to repeat history. I don't find much joy in things anymore. Aside from some nice landscapes and good TV, there isn't anything else. I find it hard to listen to music as well.  

    Not really anything I want to talk about.

  • in reply to Jakey

    I feel low as well.

    I get a bit better by plugging myself off the media for a few weeks.

    One reason may be that we are quite analytic but also feel very deeply, and the contradiction and pain becomes unbearable.

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  • in reply to emanningis

    I do like you advice on the hard times, plugging out from all the chaos sounds really healthy and let's you get back in control. I think that would give you space to breath and focus on the things that bring contentment, rather than the gloom of outlets. 

    Analysing and feeling deeply are true for me too. 

    Virtual hugs to all who need them.

    It's good to just hold space sometimes, and know someone wishes you well tonight.