I feel like the world is ending

I'm sorry it's really hard for you at the moment, I don't have anything more to help, than hang on and don't let the systems that are letting you down win. Keep shouting at them, and like Hergé, scream into the void when you need to. Reaching out is hard, and if you don't feel heard, that can make it harder the next time. 

The news is so hard at the moment, and everything is so charged. I keep reading the BBC news site, but it's really depressing at the state of the world. I can't comprehend people not being kind to each, and it's all so negative. I do like looking at the pictures people send in of around Scotland, it's a little bit of joy amongst the sadness.

Defying the sadness is hard, but you have worth, and I'm glad you could at the very least tell us about how hard it is. It is a really hard thing to do. It's obvious you've been doing it a while, it can be wearing but it's a good thing to do.

Would you like to talk about anything that could cheer you? I do love your sylveon pic. Though I appreciate if you don't want to. 

I can't really override it. It doesn't work. Whatever this feeling of despair and suicidal thoughts are, they override free will. 

I know the news is tough, that's partially why I'm depressed. UK politics are absolutely out of control and idiots buy what other idiots say. Then the only hope we have is suddenly the devil to them. Exactly the kind of crap that dooms us to repeat history. I don't find much joy in things anymore. Aside from some nice landscapes and good TV, there isn't anything else. I find it hard to listen to music as well.  

Not really anything I want to talk about.

I think when depressed it's so hard to find the joy in anything, so I don't blame you. Is it alright if I ask if you are being treated for depression, and if that's helping at all? I mean it's difficult to be taken seriously sometimes, but it's sad when the system to support is so fall of holes (the chronic under funding doesn't help), and then you have parties coming in saying they don't believe in it and want to slash support further. Wouldn't it be nice to have a magic wand to wave and fix it all. To design systems that work, the world is very spiky, but you can dream of what it could look like. 

Sometimes the greatest strength though is just holding still, even with the hurricanes roaring, to be able to just keep going despite it all. If just being was a marathon, a lot of people here would win medals.

I am trying to get better at some things myself, but changing is hard. I like listening to podcasts, it helps with hearing people talking of things that aren't terrible, and gives a truer sense of the world, that there is life outside of the bad times. Even if you can't find joy, doing one small thing to help is worth it.

You aren't alone with it.

Yes they do make the system difficult on purpose, to try to make people miserable as they think that will make people want to work, but the opposite is true, as when you get like that everything is harder. Burnout is very hard to deal with, and there is so little research into courses that could actually help, so yeah being pushed around medication in the hope one 'fixes it', would be difficult. 

The world keeps turning though, and it's worth holding out for change. Write to MP's and tell them what's important to you. Sometimes being the voice of all the people like you that are suffering helps, even when you get the dismissive reply, they've had to read it, and if lots of people wrote letters, they would start thinking maybe it's important. It can feel pointless, but the tiny things we do to be heard can add up. 

I hope one day you can move to somewhere that makes you happier.

It's not depression, it's autistic burnout. Learnt that the hard way with the amount of treatments I've had. Therapy, 5 different types of medication and still not helping, in fact making things worse because I turn out so depressed from taking the meds.

All I want from the economy is a place where I can be alone away from noise issues, preferably in a beautiful part of the UK, or Scotland. And not have to worry about paying bills... or at least the ones I have to cover, thanks to a complicated and pointless support system and universal credit. 

It's not depression, it's autistic burnout. Learnt that the hard way with the amount of treatments I've had. Therapy, 5 different types of medication and still not helping, in fact making things worse because I turn out so depressed from taking the meds.

All I want from the economy is a place where I can be alone away from noise issues, preferably in a beautiful part of the UK, or Scotland. And not have to worry about paying bills... or at least the ones I have to cover, thanks to a complicated and pointless support system and universal credit. 

Yes they do make the system difficult on purpose, to try to make people miserable as they think that will make people want to work, but the opposite is true, as when you get like that everything is harder. Burnout is very hard to deal with, and there is so little research into courses that could actually help, so yeah being pushed around medication in the hope one 'fixes it', would be difficult. 

The world keeps turning though, and it's worth holding out for change. Write to MP's and tell them what's important to you. Sometimes being the voice of all the people like you that are suffering helps, even when you get the dismissive reply, they've had to read it, and if lots of people wrote letters, they would start thinking maybe it's important. It can feel pointless, but the tiny things we do to be heard can add up. 

I hope one day you can move to somewhere that makes you happier.