I’m finding working environment really hard

I’ve always struggled with environments outside my safe space my home. I have trouble with friendships and even family relationships but I’ve been at my work place for 7 years 2 years again I reduced my hours to only mornings and to do paper work my managers allow me access to the office so I have no interruptions and noise I wear head cancelling headphones and my adjustments at work have been to not have any sudden changes to my routine so I’ve not been covering in other rooms or covering lunch times (I have said it they prepare me with a change the day before I can sort of cope better with it because I have times to process it) any the staff keep making remarks about my adjustments and talking and whispering (I know this because I’ve walked in before without them hearing me) but when I walked in the talking stops so I know it’s about me. The staff in my room have made comments about me not moving around and covering different rooms and much and then I got told today hello I said hello back and smiled and she said wow well done you actually smiled at me today. I feel the staff don’t like me because of my differences I’m also a carer to a family member so when work need cover becuase of other staff absences i can’t do it which again i get the frustration of the staff im just stuck I can’t leave i feel depressed and I hate waking up to go to work does anyone else relate or has advice 

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  • That sound really hard, to get the accomodations you need, but feel more isolated because of them. Between a rock and a hard place. You are clearly working very hard, but it's difficult when others still compare and judge. I've had that with trying to work part time, even though you could be working to your limits, it as seen by others as less-than and not-enough. You are doing brilliantly, though the depression will be hurting a lot. Even when you know you should ignore their pettiness, it still hurts a lot. I don't know what you should do, but perhaps find ways of working on your own emotional wellbeing to ride it out. It sounds like a good job, and it's unfair that it's becoming unbearable due to being treated poorly.
    Maybe if you can find an outlet for the negative energy, like doing some exercise might help pick up your spirits, and do see a doctor if the depression is bad, it's a good thing to get help for it, they might even have some other suggestions for you.

    I wish the best for you.

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  • That sound really hard, to get the accomodations you need, but feel more isolated because of them. Between a rock and a hard place. You are clearly working very hard, but it's difficult when others still compare and judge. I've had that with trying to work part time, even though you could be working to your limits, it as seen by others as less-than and not-enough. You are doing brilliantly, though the depression will be hurting a lot. Even when you know you should ignore their pettiness, it still hurts a lot. I don't know what you should do, but perhaps find ways of working on your own emotional wellbeing to ride it out. It sounds like a good job, and it's unfair that it's becoming unbearable due to being treated poorly.
    Maybe if you can find an outlet for the negative energy, like doing some exercise might help pick up your spirits, and do see a doctor if the depression is bad, it's a good thing to get help for it, they might even have some other suggestions for you.

    I wish the best for you.

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