I kept ending up in the same situation.
Different job. Different relationship.
Same result. Same patterns.
A lifetime of repetition. Over a decade and a half in therapy. Still I couldn’t break it.
Push. Burnout. Collapse. Shutdown. Rebuild. Repeat.
12 months ago I started designing a system with AI to track the patterns.
Not like the therapy I’ve had. Not following any model I’d used.
I’m autistic + ADHD, with Complex PTSD sitting underneath it.
Diagnosed late at 47, after building a system that helped me track what was actually happening.
The patterns I mapped aren’t just personal.
They show up in how systems treat people too — health, money, care.
The same cost pushed onto people already carrying too much.
Same failures. Same negligence.
I’m not pitching a product.
I’m looking for people who can read this and understand what it is.
People who think like this.
Who understand it without needing it translated.
People who could help take this further —
people like me, like you.
I just want to know if you recognise it —
the loops, the repetition, the sense that no amount of effort shifts the outcome.
And whether seeing it mapped like this would have changed anything for you.
If you’re someone who thinks like this.
If you work in law, or know someone this would resonate with.
If you’re autistic, or understand masking from the inside.
If this lands with you, say something.
