High masking self v Authentic autistic self

Does anyone else who's high masking feel like there's such a massive gap between the external presentation of self to others and the internal self. Even with those closest to me. 

It feels like the bigger that gap has been, the harder the crash during burnout. It feels like there's further to go for me to get my true authentic autistic self. 

I was self diagnosed for 9 months before got official diagnosis. I went for this mainly because I was so good at masking (which I'd just found out about) that I didn't think anyone would believe me that I'm autistic!

I suppose I'm now in the period of shortening that gap!

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  • I’m glad my words brought you happiness. I feel it is important that all disadvantaged and minority people stick together against the haters. You will Im sure feel this from the high profile gender criticals who are influencing many politicians and political parties on the hunt for votes. Too much of it also originates in religion, I know so many in the LGBTQ+ community who have been told they are heading to hell (including me), but as the saying goes: I don’t want to go to heaven, none of my friends are there 

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