Autism assessment- conflicting feelings

I just had the second part of my assessment. In may ways it shows what I experience and how it affects me. It validated any struggles I face.

However, I now feel really low as a result. I feel very 'different' as everything atypical is laid bare. I felt comfortable and engaged, yet it was pointed out I looked anxious and uncomfortable throughout. I now worry about all my social interactions. If I am looking like this when comfortable how must I appear to everyone I meet when I do feel nervous.

Comments where made on my lack of expressions, how I speak and I just generally felt like I came out of it feeling like I am so different and like with a greater lack of self esteem. My confidence is already low and this has not helped.

I would appreciate why advice on how to come to terms with being neurodivergent. At the moment it doesn't feel like some superpower but something that at it's core makes me feel like a worse version of who I want to be

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  • Before I realised that I was autistic, and was later diagnosed, I thought that most people had similar problems to me, but they were much stronger than I was and dealt with them much more efficiently. I now realise that most of my problems are unimaginable to the vast majority of other people. Neurotypical people slide through the everyday world without a thought or qualm. That I function at all in society is a reflection on my own inner strength, not my weakness. You can look at things from two diametrically opposite viewpoints - I have lots of problems, I struggle and limp along, or, I have lots of problems, but still manage to function, I am really cool!

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  • Before I realised that I was autistic, and was later diagnosed, I thought that most people had similar problems to me, but they were much stronger than I was and dealt with them much more efficiently. I now realise that most of my problems are unimaginable to the vast majority of other people. Neurotypical people slide through the everyday world without a thought or qualm. That I function at all in society is a reflection on my own inner strength, not my weakness. You can look at things from two diametrically opposite viewpoints - I have lots of problems, I struggle and limp along, or, I have lots of problems, but still manage to function, I am really cool!

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