Autism assessment- conflicting feelings

I just had the second part of my assessment. In may ways it shows what I experience and how it affects me. It validated any struggles I face.

However, I now feel really low as a result. I feel very 'different' as everything atypical is laid bare. I felt comfortable and engaged, yet it was pointed out I looked anxious and uncomfortable throughout. I now worry about all my social interactions. If I am looking like this when comfortable how must I appear to everyone I meet when I do feel nervous.

Comments where made on my lack of expressions, how I speak and I just generally felt like I came out of it feeling like I am so different and like with a greater lack of self esteem. My confidence is already low and this has not helped.

I would appreciate why advice on how to come to terms with being neurodivergent. At the moment it doesn't feel like some superpower but something that at it's core makes me feel like a worse version of who I want to be

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  • Hi  and welcome. It is a common experience to be unsettled by assessment, even though it gives us answers. It's worth remembering that assessors are trained professionals watching us much more closely than would generally be the case with people in general. The assessor's comments can be uncomfortable but it's part of finding out we are different, not broken, and rest assured you are far from alone. Take your time, let yourself feel, and find out more. You may find that time spent with other neurodivergent folk (like on here) strengthens you. Most of all, aim to be compassionate towards yourself.

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  • Hi  and welcome. It is a common experience to be unsettled by assessment, even though it gives us answers. It's worth remembering that assessors are trained professionals watching us much more closely than would generally be the case with people in general. The assessor's comments can be uncomfortable but it's part of finding out we are different, not broken, and rest assured you are far from alone. Take your time, let yourself feel, and find out more. You may find that time spent with other neurodivergent folk (like on here) strengthens you. Most of all, aim to be compassionate towards yourself.

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