I'm not sure if I'm being bullied or not, but the manager of the store I work (not boss) he shares at me weird, especially when seeing me covering my eyes when the light or sunlight is too strong. He doesn't say halo or bye to me, I feel it somehow he treats me differently and worse than others. His behaviour is much different that the boss, who comes very rarely. The boss always shakes everyone's hand, mine too. The boss knows that I have some mental health issues without details, and he accepts it. He is happy that im hard working, I speak few foreign languages, which helps in communication with foreign drivers and I keep papers in order. Bit the store manager doesn't like me, because I'm a weirdo, antisocial, I don't chat or very little, always busy doing something. And too sensitive to certain sounds and lights (mostly these two) sensitivities to smells are not relevant at work. He stares me, comments on me. I feel it, he doesn't like me for who I am, without me doing anything wrong to him. I don't really care, whether he likes me or not, but I'm afraid of him causing me troubles. I also struggle with catastrophising. I found interesting article about it on this site. I relate a lot:
https://www.autism.org.uk/advice-and-guidance/professional-practice/autism-catastrophising
So I have terrible scenarios of me losing my job. I also have some thoughts- bullying anyone for having a physical disability is widely not accepted. But with mental health issues- it's widely accepted. I don't want to disclose what suspects my therapist, even if I ever get diagnosed. I'm afraid of being even more bullied.
My therapist is ready to give me a referral for diagnosis, but there are no free places so far. So the only thing I have is the paper I have from my therapist, where he wrote my issues in 3 sentences and wrote his diagnoses he gave me, and also the suspected autism. This is not an official dx, so this paper does not have much power. But may help me in some situations.
