I’m 56 and got diagnosed with autism last year. I first went to my GP 12 years ago when I gave up drinking (I was dependent) but my GP dismissed me and more or less told me I was been silly and I was just coming to terms with life without drink. Anyway eventually I got an assessment and sure enough I am autistic something I already knew through years of research. The psychologist told me she thought I would benefit from an ADHD assessment as well, this was a surprise but looking back it shouldn’t have been because for years I was self medicating with amphetamines this is actually what led to my drinking because I would drink to take the edge off the amphetamines and one thing led to another as they say….
Since my diagnosis everything has got so much harder, work has become impossible and it came to a head Wednesday this week when I just couldn’t face going in so I got my daughter to phone in sick for me(I’m a coward) The only time I’m and happy and feel physically well is when I’m in the house doing my mosaic’s or art everything else I’m finding near to impossible.
i have just got back from the GP I wrote down everything I needed to say because my mind has got a habit of just stopping working when I need it. The GP interrupted me straight away as I was reading my notes and through me off completely, He was so abrupt and actually said what do you want from me? I was shaking I was that upset it was awful and I couldn’t wait to get out of the room. I honestly think my whole gp surgery has a problem with neurodivergent people especially late diagnosed.
I am really struggling to make sense of my whole life at the moment and feel completely overwhelmed everytime I need to leave the house for anything.
when the GP saw me shaking he said you look anxious and said would you consider medication. The lack of understanding or willingness to understand is really frustrating. I’m considering changing my GP.
I just feel like I need some breathing space and the GP just made me feel like I’m wasting everyone’s time. Something I’ve felt like all my life. Sorry to go on but I’m feeling a little bit lost at the moment. Has anyone else had to deal with passive aggressive GP’s and if so how do you cope? I wish I was more assertive but years of masking and people pleasing has made it neat to impossible. Any advice would be much appreciated
