Really struggling at the moment

As the title says. Guess it’s another rant post again so sorry for this. 

Been having such awful times since last Friday. Everyone is just being so mean to me, especially my bully neighbours Sob. All this stress has just got the better of me (despite trying to avoid or distract myself from stress) and it’s leading to daily headaches which are throbbing like crazy. I’ve had my Christmas decorations mocked and scoffed by these neighbours and they keep screaming and crying and even kicking footballs into my door. Annoyingly my doorbell camera can’t seem to pick up the kicking of the football into my door or even my doormat being kicked. Whenever I open my door and they are there they now scream and cry even louder than ever and say things like ugly or something! Even getting this on my doorbell thing when they walk past. Not to mention how I am now unable to sleep because all these kids do is scream, screech, cry etc. Why do people have to be so cruel and mean? What did I do to deserve all this? I can’t help the way I look and I’m like the most modest person and even I think I am nicer looking than all of them. I’m not the one being unkind or thinking unkindly it’s everyone else so please don’t say I’m the unkind one! 

Sorry for my rant I just need to get off my chest. I can’t even enjoy my weekend or that because of them screeching!! My sims are better behaved haha! 

Parents
  • Sometimes I just wear stress rather than let myself feel it. You can really avoid it it’s how/if you let it affect you. When I am nervous I know that is when I need to go out or do something creative because that nervousness can also be an energy you learn to enjoy.

  • Wow I never really thought of it that way. I think the thing with me is that the more I try and ignore the stress or anger, the worse I tend to feel, like my brain tells me I need to get the stress and anger out of my system. Though I should look into healthier way of getting rid of that anger and stress, but then my brain tells me I should get the anger and stress out my screaming, crying, swearing etc as the healthier ways of getting rid don’t get rid but just conceal the anger and stress until another trigger. Hope that makes sense

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  • Wow I never really thought of it that way. I think the thing with me is that the more I try and ignore the stress or anger, the worse I tend to feel, like my brain tells me I need to get the stress and anger out of my system. Though I should look into healthier way of getting rid of that anger and stress, but then my brain tells me I should get the anger and stress out my screaming, crying, swearing etc as the healthier ways of getting rid don’t get rid but just conceal the anger and stress until another trigger. Hope that makes sense

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