Burnout after telling work about diagnosis

Hello I'm new here,  was officially diagnosed in June this year, im 53 year old female, really high masking with demanding job. I got to point recently i wanted to tell work as I feel like im getting more and more autistic recently, I've read this is a thing that happens. Told my boss last week, she was really supportive, woke up the next day and felt like had hit a massive wall and been off sick since then. My manager did discuss me taking some time off but didnt think I needed this. I feel like im in burnout, I think I'd been having that convo either work in my head for 6 months and actually doing it has tipped me over the edge, ive been so tense about telling them - been there nearly 20 years and they know im a high performer but not quite sure at this point how ill be when i go back. Can anyone relate to this? And burnout is so horrible, hardly been able to function, the exhaustion is intense. It feels like i might be like this forever, my logical mind knows I probably won't be but part of me thinks I've just turned into a crumbling mess. 

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  • I am self employed but I can relate to the idea of burnout becoming much worse after discovering you are autistic, or getting diagnosed or telling someone important. I realised that I was autistic nearly a year ago after feeling burnt out for some years and not understanding why. I felt that discovering this and getting diagnosed (which I was in November last year) and talking to my wife about it all, would make things easier. In some ways it has, but  I have also had periods of feeling more burnt out than ever before. I find any level of stress hard to deal with ATM so I definitely sympathise with you on that. I am very thankful that I am self employed because, having had jobs in busy offices before, I think the wheels would have come off a lot earlier for me with the level of masking required for that. As it is, I spend a fair amount of my time working alone and, although I can find the job rather dull and tedious at times, being my own boss is a definite plus. I wish you all the best.

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  • I am self employed but I can relate to the idea of burnout becoming much worse after discovering you are autistic, or getting diagnosed or telling someone important. I realised that I was autistic nearly a year ago after feeling burnt out for some years and not understanding why. I felt that discovering this and getting diagnosed (which I was in November last year) and talking to my wife about it all, would make things easier. In some ways it has, but  I have also had periods of feeling more burnt out than ever before. I find any level of stress hard to deal with ATM so I definitely sympathise with you on that. I am very thankful that I am self employed because, having had jobs in busy offices before, I think the wheels would have come off a lot earlier for me with the level of masking required for that. As it is, I spend a fair amount of my time working alone and, although I can find the job rather dull and tedious at times, being my own boss is a definite plus. I wish you all the best.

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