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Nightly nightmares

Elfilis

I’m really struggling lately due to having such horrible nightmares! I mean last two night have involved me having jabs in my arms and even feet but the horrible thing is I can feel the jabs in my nightmares and I can feel them even when I'm awake. I’m also vividly seeing all the horrible people who have bullied me and I'm either reliving traumatic scenarios or I’m making them up in my sleep. Also keep having nightmares of dying or losing my mum. I’m waking up all hot and tacky and sometimes even crying a lot and for the whole day I’m just so jittery and on edge, then I go to bed and the whole vicious circle begins again. Last night for some reason my nightmare was all the bullies ganging up on me then next thing is I’m dying of birth complications?! I mean don’t ask me where the latter came from. 

Does anyone know how to stop the nightmares? Or is this something I’ll just have to deal with? 

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  • Maybe you could do something to feel like you're taking back control of the situation, as something might be making you feel off? Like writing it all down in a letter then destroying it? I know this sounds silly, but drawing a lovely Christmas picture and saying that's what your are going to dream about and having it by your bed? 

  • in reply to Cinnabar_wing

    Ahh that’s a good idea about drawing actually. Especially for Christmas! I have seen some Christmas colouring apps as well so they might help me. I guess my mind is just racing a lot lately with everything that’s happened I could be in burnout mode again.

    I think what could be making me feel off is that at certain times of year, I seem to get edgy but not realise or can’t remember why until later on. So example here will be that I remember years ago have a really nasty family fight from 30 November to 3 December. But I’ve only just remembered today. I don’t know if this makes sense. Like I’m trying to forget the traumas but I can’t seem to but I can’t remember until later on. 

    Another thing could be because quite of few people who bullied me have their birthdays this time of year, like one day after another, but these clusters of birthdays are quite frequent throughout the year. I do have a bad ocd with numbers. 

  • in reply to Elfilis

    That sound like it would definitely throw me off so I really don't blame you. I like drawing generally and also doodle to feel better (I hadn't even noticed this was a form of stimming, especially as I do all the same thing like  swirls for instance).

    Hopefully you will be out of that zone now you've recognised it, and can enjoy doing some relaxing drawing!

  • in reply to Cinnabar_wing

    Aww I didn’t know they have paw patrol ones, wonder if they have SpongeBob onesRofl! I just got a £10 thing off eBay but I’m probably in need of a new one. Good quality ones seem to go for about £38 but they are the proper Buddha brands I think. 

  • in reply to Elfilis

    That's actually an amazing kind of therapy I think, writing your feeling on it. I might give it a try as I'm scared of writing things down in case it's read (probably going back to being 6 and my older brother prising my diary open and finding out who I liked, why is everything some sort of trauma). I might try it, though I will have to get a new board. We still have the old one, but it's Paw Patrol themed, so that would put me off a bit!

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  • in reply to Elfilis

    That's actually an amazing kind of therapy I think, writing your feeling on it. I might give it a try as I'm scared of writing things down in case it's read (probably going back to being 6 and my older brother prising my diary open and finding out who I liked, why is everything some sort of trauma). I might try it, though I will have to get a new board. We still have the old one, but it's Paw Patrol themed, so that would put me off a bit!

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