Nightly nightmares

I’m really struggling lately due to having such horrible nightmares! I mean last two night have involved me having jabs in my arms and even feet but the horrible thing is I can feel the jabs in my nightmares and I can feel them even when I'm awake. I’m also vividly seeing all the horrible people who have bullied me and I'm either reliving traumatic scenarios or I’m making them up in my sleep. Also keep having nightmares of dying or losing my mum. I’m waking up all hot and tacky and sometimes even crying a lot and for the whole day I’m just so jittery and on edge, then I go to bed and the whole vicious circle begins again. Last night for some reason my nightmare was all the bullies ganging up on me then next thing is I’m dying of birth complications?! I mean don’t ask me where the latter came from. 

Does anyone know how to stop the nightmares? Or is this something I’ll just have to deal with? 

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  • I’m really struggling lately due to having such horrible nightmares!
    I am really struggling with my EUPD, CPTSD and BDD again lately,

    I think your cPTSD is probably the source of the issues from what you describe in different posts here - previous traumas have not been sufficiently resolved to allow you to move past them.

    The anxiety stemming from this is most likely making your EUPD and BDD flare up.

    To move past this you really need a good therapist who can help you unpack those traumas, come to terms with the pain it is causing you and start the healing process.

    That would be my thoughts on the situation, but I'm just a random off the internet so don't take this as medical advice please Slight smile

  • Ahh it’s ok I respect your opinion and trying to help me so I’m very grateful! I’m actually seeing a psychologist one a month, but I have been doing a lot of detailed notes for her so she can understand me better and understand my “hot spot triggers” but I seem to have a lot of them. I do agree that the CPTSD is no doubt the source of this and of course the autism doesn’t help either. As I said my mind is clearly very jumbled up right now. If only we could control our dreams somehow haha

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  • Ahh it’s ok I respect your opinion and trying to help me so I’m very grateful! I’m actually seeing a psychologist one a month, but I have been doing a lot of detailed notes for her so she can understand me better and understand my “hot spot triggers” but I seem to have a lot of them. I do agree that the CPTSD is no doubt the source of this and of course the autism doesn’t help either. As I said my mind is clearly very jumbled up right now. If only we could control our dreams somehow haha

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  • I must admit I slept much better in th night and woke up without the panicky or tacky feeling, plus didn’t get disturbed in the night so maybe talking about it on here has helped. 

    I seem to be struggling with the flashbacks of how my mum went from loving and caring to this horrible cold hearted witch due to her sister when I needed my mums love the most. Also struggling with how my dad torments me and doesn’t care or he does things that he knows I hate and can send me into meltdowns. I mean for years I’ve told him to stop and he won’t and now my brain just can’t seem to cope anymore. Like it’s as if life continues but I encounter more distressing things to add to my traumatised brain and each day I live I have more traumas to deal with compared to years ago.

    Im seeing my psychologist on the 20th I think so I’ll explain all this to her. It’s like I’m just that tense that I can’t relax because my brain is overflowing with all these traumas. 

  • Your dreams can be where you brain is processing the days information, or playing with it to prepare for the future. If you are spending time in the day writing out bad things it may not be ready to have happy dreams.

    The other possibility is as you unlock certain things by writing or in sessions, it may allow certain ideas or concepts to come out for processing that were suppressed before. It may be the actual event, it using metaphors. You can also read too much into them and they might just be random.

    I seldom dream, but they are almost always related to things that bother me.

    You dream during REM sleep. Drinking alcohol interferes with this. If you don't have deep sleep you avoid dreams, but you are also tired because you don't rest properly.

  • I will definitely mention this to my psychologist, I did let her know in an email about my nightmares and sensations etc. I also have had moments when in my dreams I realise I’m dreaming but I can’t wake myself up. Also I’ve had dreams of being in my bed but I can’t move because I’m so weak or dying then next thing is I’m awake and panicking like crazy. 

  • maybe tell her about your dreams too if you haven't already  

    it's all a bit Freudian Psychoanalysis I think but hey you mentioned them to us :-)

    In respect of "controlling our dreams" many years ago I went through a course out of a book that resulted in me being somewhat able to control my own dreams.  It is called "lucid dreaming" I had fun with it trying to open doors in dreams when I came upon them.  Eventually had a fab time flying about in them

    Haven't done so for a while now however I do make a point of "watching" and making a comment to myself about them "in them" when I have them now when I get a chance.  Helps me work out a bit more what's going on in my subconscious (hehe well I think so anyway!)

    Hehe might explain a few things about my own special weirdness!