I’m sick of trying. I’m exhausted trying to do everything say everything to speak right. Sick of being judged. Also sick of trying to be someone I’m not. I honestly cant do most things. But I will try to show I can do them. I don’t know how to stop trying to be more able than I am. The more I try the more exhausted mentally and the worse it gets. But I can’t stop. It’s because there’s pressure in me and outwith me to be more than I can be. To get it all right. To be more than I can. To do things I can’t do. I’m too ill for it. I’ve tried and I’m not able to do it. My brain doesn’t work. I have undiagnosed ADHD rejection sensitivity Dysphoria anxiety depression burnout and level one autism. Heads exhausted.
