I had a bad mental health spiral a couple of years ago at age 31 due to feeling like my life was disappearing and not knowing what I was wrong or why couldn’t do things. I had a couple of people at work I felt I had made friends with who I could confide in and ended up telling them things were getting bad, and I was have suicidal thoughts. I got signed off from work and started therapy (still doing this now) which kick started the process resulting in me getting diagnosed with autism this Summer just gone.
The diagnosis triggered a bad mental health episode, and it turns out the people I had been confiding in couldn’t cope with me anymore and my line manager changed. It feels like I’ve been locked out of being able to talk to my ‘autistic allies’ and my new line manager is doing things like telling me not to look out of windows during meetings and picking up on things I’m saying in group chats. None of my previous managers have ever said things like this before and work is getting really stressful as a result.
It feels like my life is falling apart and I have no hope for the future 
My job was the only thing going for me as I thought I had found something I could do and I had made my own reasonable adjustments before I new what those were. But now I’ve ruined that and I don’t know what to do. I’ve been thinking about moving jobs or going back to university. Has anyone ever gone through anything like this before?
