So. Turns out it was
trauma. Any other takers (I’m kidding, a little bit)?
This utter dumpster fire of spiraling, depression, anxiety, and dysfunction, are due to medical trauma I experienced two years ago at a treatment center I really didn’t need to go to. Turns out being forced to interrogate and strip away your deep psyche in front of a room full of judgemental strangers every day for 3 months is not in fact something the human mind was meant to withstand. Big whoop. Anyways I’m about done with the medical system now. No more tests, no more treatments, just me and my trustworthy shrink, and, like, my eye doctor and dentist and ***.
im so done, so drained, and finally at peace with the idea that goddamnit these past few years weren’t my fault, and I really need to do a deep dive investigative study into how harmful the American psychiatric business really is. Burn the institution, raaaaah. You see a random slew of op-eds about the exploitative mental health institutions, bet your money it’s me.
So, long time no talk, missed yall, but my spirit animal for the past few months has been my cat trying to charm her way out of a veterinary exam by pissing all over everything.
anybody else have similar experiences?
Gaaaaaaaah
love, smiles, cookies, whatever.
Max
