I'm finding myself having a lot of difficulty with communication at the moment. Obviously this is a part of being autistic and not uncommon. But I just seem to be having greater difficulty at the moment.
Things I'm saying are just being misinterpreted or come out not as I intended and I think people are actually getting offended. It is never my intention to offend anyone and I really try to think through what I'm saying but no matter how much thought I put in, it doesn't seem to be well received at times. Often I intend it to be funny but it just doesn't come out that way. I guess I could just stop trying to be funny but that's easier said than done. Humour is often a coping mechanism.
I don't know why this seems to be a greater difficulty at the moment. It's starting to really get to me. It just feels like other people seem to communicate with each other so easily and I always feel like on the outside. Trying so hard but failing so often. There always seems to be a big distance between me and other people. It really feels like I speak a different language sometimes.
Finding it really hard not to beat myself up and hate my autism at the moment.
