Feeling so hurt

So sorry to hear that your situation with your father is so bad . Are you in a position to stop contact with him, as he sounds a very toxic individual?  My parents were always supportive, but struggled to understand mental health issues. 

So sorry to hear that your situation with your father is so bad . Are you in a position to stop contact with him, as he sounds a very toxic individual?  My parents were always supportive, but struggled to understand mental health issues. 

Hi, yes I am in a position to cut contact, but whenever I have tried, my mum has always talked me out of it but when he said I will always come crawling back to him, I thought I can’t do this anymore and I’ve explained to my mum as well. My mum doesn’t understand everything but is at least sympathetic or empathetic and supports me when I’m weak. My worry is that my mum will try and talk me out of it again or my dad will act like nothing has happened and expect me to play Mario kart with him or something but he can’t always get what he wants. I also felt obliged to keep contact, plus he kept saying he will take me on trips to places but if he does he ruins them for me. I mean I was wanting to go to Singapore one day but after so many failed holidays with him I don’t want to take that chance and have another traumatic experience!