Motivation

This_is_me1 said:

Does anyone find that motivation levels can be really low or zero sometimes?

Negative.

I don't mean "no", I mean sometimes I feel like I lack the motivation to even feel I have zero motivation. I just have to turn my back on it. It's too painful to be a witness to it. My whole being slumps, gives up in the face of it.

I resonate with Mr T's characterisation of it as a devastating loop of despair. I get so stuck sometimes that I try to play it down, hide it, bury the shame of it, tell people I'm getting along OK, all the while I'm more and more terrified that I'll be caught, found out. And there are real consequences to f—ing up—again.

Today is not a good day. Today, life is just too bloody hard. I can't do anything. I'm tired of it. Sick of it.

Sorry for the rant. I'll try to get some help this weekend with a few things and see if that breaks me out of the loop.

Damojo said:

I get so stuck sometimes that I try to play it down, hide it, bury the shame of it, tell people I'm getting along OK, all the while I'm more and more terrified that I'll be caught, found out.

Couldn't agree more. This is a very apt description of how I am most of the time these days. At times I'm terrified of the future and what it might mean for me.

I think I'll go back and re-read Small Talk by Richard and Roxanne Pink. That book helped me a lot last year. It was the only ADHD book I ever read that actually made any difference. It doesn't try to help you get things done, it just tries to make you feel less s—t about it when you don't. That's worth a lot, as it's much more likely to be relevant.

I think I'll go back and re-read Small Talk by Richard and Roxanne Pink. That book helped me a lot last year. It was the only ADHD book I ever read that actually made any difference. It doesn't try to help you get things done, it just tries to make you feel less s—t about it when you don't. That's worth a lot, as it's much more likely to be relevant.

please to know you're better - a good day by many standards (tho' perhaps not your own - I think  ) I hope this helps you feel better too (- my background is in human movement and exercise -)  but Google says it better than me : "observing an exercise can be a form of "motor priming" that primes the motor system for subsequent movement, with studies showing increased muscular strength from visualizing exercise"  hehe "you are what you eat" extends into many forms of consumption maybe!  

Phased said:

hope today is a better day Damojo

Thanks, Phased.

Yeah, feeling a bit better today, if still a little fragile. I offloaded (luckily) the one bit of work that was really stressing me, went for a 7 km walk in the evening and listened to some music, told myself I'd get help tackling a few other jobs on the weekend, watched some athletics on the telly that I recorded earlier in the day, finished reading my book, slept reasonably well (by my standards). Back to just the normal struggle today.

hope today is a better day Damojo ....   one because for you and yours sake and 2 because I'd like you to be better enough so I could tease you about when are you going to be able to get around to read a book... best wishes!