This could be silly for some but please be nice if I’m being dramatic fine but please don’t be mean I’m still figuring out how I feel a lot of the time and distinguishing different feelings. And this will probably be a long one so I can explain.
So I’ve a had a bad day to be honest. I was running late this morning, I woke up with my lip feeling like i had a ball kicked at it. Then couldn’t find my normal work trousers they were in the washer so they weren’t clean. So I had to wear skirt and tights. It was really raining outside but I couldn’t find my wellies so I had to go in my normal trainers. I got soaked and my umbrella was broken and my coat was dripping on to my skirt. Shoes socks tights and skirt drenched. Get to the crossing where my bus stop is bus sees me waiting to cross over I think great I’ve just made just as I get to the door he pulls away. Darn just missed it I’ll get the next one. Check the app it’s not coming neither is rhe next one… bus finally shows up. I get to work 5 minutes late. No big deal. Change my shoes put my heater on to dry my shoes and the rest of me. Go about my work day. Rather stressful. Blinked and it was home time and I felt like I had achieved nothing. Left work 30 minutes late. Get home 30 minutes later than normal. Go about my evening. I have an exam soon and I’ve been trying to revise as much as I can but finding it incredibly difficult and frustrating. So the event that triggered this question I was stuck on the same question for an hour trying the same equation getting different answers every time but none of the answers were correct I kept trying over and over and over until I snapped I lost it and essentially threw my things across the room and just lost control in a sense (I won’t go into detail). I started to calm down. I’ve had these little moments before and I’ve been fine after a little while but this one felt different. I had to remember to breathe and actually do it (not just on autopilot like physically had to make myself breathe I don’t know how to explain it) and my body felt so heavy and felt so tired all of a sudden. It was different and difficult. I think the frustration with the question was the final straw of the day. Anyway that’s my little rant I guess.
