Hi All
i am on the long list for a formal Autism Diagnosis. I was nearly 40 when they made the discovery I am likely Autistic. The signs are there just never realised.
Rather than go off on a tangent will try and get to the point!
I think I Am on the verge of a major burnout and I am scared. Today I had the worst anxiety attack I have ever had, full on heavy breathing, shaming and tears, but even scarier was my aversion to noise in this moment, I was alone in the house but working from home, the phone rang and washing machine was on but I just could not cope with the noise so I ran upstairs and curled into the foetal position in the hope of escaping my feelings.
i have always had a strong sense of justice and at the moment I am finding myself more and more obsessed with what I think is right and fair and I am not able to cope or understand why seething is decided or why something happens the way it does. Why do people lie, why do things happen the way they do? Why do some get away with some things and some do not? I am really Struggling with this and my own understanding of myself in general and it is scaring me
