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Summer depression

Elfilis

Bit more of a rant post but I just wanted to voice my feelings of summer. 

I struggle with all the high temperatures, if I open the windows I end up with bugs and insects in my place (can’t even get rid of wasps and so scared of them), I also end up hearing people screaming and shouting, loud car engines and people honking their horns just for the sake of it and it also stinks of smoke which makes me feel unwell! If I have my windows closed I’m slowly being cooked alive but even with the window open there isn’t any breeze, even if a night. I can never sleep or get comfortable either and if I do get to sleep I wake up multiple times in the night. When going out I feel I have to cover up because I’m an eyesore compared to everyone else and people seem to be so rude and arrogant. Plus everyone seems to have nice high end cars and stuff compared to what me and my parents have. In fact I don’t even know how to drive so I don’t have a car. Having work and renovations isn’t helping either and not to mention how rude they have been to me and mistreated my place. Plus I feel we have been ripped off. I also can’t do any exercise due to the heat but I keep thinking what’s the point anyway as I’m not worth it. 

I'm meant to be going on holiday next month but I’ll be honest I’m dreading the airports and flight! I’m also dreading what people will think of me when they see me. I never used to be like this but since my bullying and harassment at the workplace I can’t help but think I’m a poor thrump. He’s been very manipulative this bully and I am triggered all the time but I seem to struggle more in summer which leads to meltdowns and depression! I’m also crying when I see myself in any sort of reflection because of how awful I look. 

Does anyone relate to what I’m saying? 

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  • in reply to TheCatWoman

    Well if they tell us to stop complaining then they clearly don’t respect other people’s views! This is meant to be our safe space. And I don’t know about summer SAD that much or if it is on the spectrum but I do feel it needs more awareness. It could be though due to my other illnesses and bullying that I struggle with summer worse than ever though. 

  • in reply to 190E(Taylor’s version)

    The thing about winter is that if you are cold you can just get all wrapped up to the perfect temperature and if you get hot it’s fast enough to cool down. In summer it’s just too hard to get that cool temperature! Like fans and them just aren’t the same

  • in reply to Elfilis

    Reading about people's experiences and feelings, makes me wonder if summer SAD isn't a part of the ASC spectrum? I know its not there officially, but maybe it should be, I've never known so many people all suffering the same things and nobodies told us to shut up and stop complaining,,,yet.. probably because the mods would stop them.

    One of the things I hate is being sweaty, because of low BP my blood dosen't circulate as fast as people with a higher BP, so less sweat evaporates and I overheat and feel horribly garmsy and sticky.

    Antoher thing I feel is the unrelenting strength of the sun like a hamer beating down on me, hats, sunglasses when they don't slide down my nose in the tsunami of sweat dripping off the end of it, being in a basement, somewhere I still know it's there, I still know it's light outside and hot.

  • in reply to Elfilis

    For us autists(autistic artists? Haha thats my new meaning for that one) the heat sensations of summer are bad although I so love being toasty warm i  winter in summer it’s too hot wirh little to no off switch