I feel as if they hold a grudge towards me for being autistic. They are both older than me, but we do not text regularly or update each other on our lives. I would have liked to hear from them more often but they don't show any effort.
I have always wanted a brother for this reason, and recently my best friend (who was a boy) left because I was too much to handle. He was like my brother. I have been very isolated so I joined this community to make online friends with the same issues that I have.
Sometimes I am not very nice to people, mostly because I'm deeply unhappy with things and feel I have a lack of support in my life. I would like more support and I have reached out before to Samaritans and Shout text service. But there's only so much you can do sometimes when you're all on your own. I understand that's just the way the world is now and everybody has to fend for themselves these days but I'm finding it so difficult to find work that will suit my needs. I would prefer hybrid or remote work but it just seems like I can't find anything. Travelling to and from work would be a stress in itself so it holds me back.
Any advice would be appreciated from anyone who has faced similar issues with their neurotypical friends/family members.
