Did you think you were autistic before someone suggested it?

I'm curious whether you can see it in yourself. I thought I was right and everyone else was wrong.

I suspected I was different, but squashed it, I was just extra normal. I couldn't figure out why I was confused and had bouts of depression,

I just wanted to know what was holding me back, why I had some atypical depression, and whether there was something up with how I communicated.

But there was no need for an autism test. I wasn't autistic surely.

Except the psychologists thought otherwise, 3 of them. I even argued with them, a sign in itself probably.

So did you guess, before someone suggested a screening test? Maybe the internet makes it more likely these days, but you need a reason to go looking.

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  • I really didn’t see it in myself in any serious way, I figured that for reasons unknown it was just how I functioned. Sure I felt different and couldn’t fit into groups but I always made excuses like I’m tired or just not feeling it today or I’m an introvert and nothing more. I wouldn’t even suspect autism when I felt uncomfortable and possibly even angry that someone was trying to interfere or change the plans I’d made for myself. I had a lot of signs but never linked them to anything other than a habitual way of being. I still have imposter syndrome that comes in waves, I am not what I believed autism to be. Perhaps I really am still under educated about it. 

  • I'm not use how old you are Autismman, but could it be because autism wasn't recognised for so long, that it just never occured to an older age group that we could be autistic?

  • I am 37 and only diagnosed this year 

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