Feeling left out regardless of how people are with me

Would you consider yourself more of an observer than a joiner in? I often feel more like I am noticing how people interact with each other as a detached observer than as an active participant. I never feel part of a crowd but merely present in the same place as a crowd. I have always felt like this but only since realising I was autistic did I understand why. It always confused me how everyone else seemed to have an intrinsic understanding of how to interact and I didn't.

I read recently about some research that said that not people could subconsciously detect autistic people and behave differently with them, even if they had no concept of autism. I could never understand why, if my wife and I met someone, they would be more drawn to her than me, before even interacting with either of us. Now I get it. It's basically a vibe!

I'm an observer, being an observer is also very much an only child thing too. I think so much of of our communication is non-verbal, there are probably loads of micro expressions that tell others we're ND, an NDar similar to a gaydar.

I'm an observer, being an observer is also very much an only child thing too. I think so much of of our communication is non-verbal, there are probably loads of micro expressions that tell others we're ND, an NDar similar to a gaydar.