Feeling Guilt for autistic accommodations.

Yep. I think for me it's a definate need to advocate for myself and not just let everything pass. But I am a Christian too, so I think it important not to always think of my own needs and to take into account the needs of others. So it's actually a balancing act - like there's this sweet old man at my parish who always rants on about things I haven't the slightest interest in and it makes me annoyed (they are really negative things which make me feel defensive as if I'm being told off) so when I can't avoid these things, I stay quiet. The other day it came ot my mind that he's an old man and to just let him ramble and so I prayed while he talked and it was much better. Now I often do this, pray for him whilst he's annoying me. Strangely enough, I'm not annoyed anymore. But saying that, when I can, I avoid an interaction. I'm just saying sometimes you can work around it and sometimes not. It's a choice. Right now I'm trying to get a medical appointment and trying to push the right ammount but also bear in mind that they are busy and there's just been a doctor strike so.... trying to practice patience. 

Yep. I think for me it's a definate need to advocate for myself and not just let everything pass. But I am a Christian too, so I think it important not to always think of my own needs and to take into account the needs of others. So it's actually a balancing act - like there's this sweet old man at my parish who always rants on about things I haven't the slightest interest in and it makes me annoyed (they are really negative things which make me feel defensive as if I'm being told off) so when I can't avoid these things, I stay quiet. The other day it came ot my mind that he's an old man and to just let him ramble and so I prayed while he talked and it was much better. Now I often do this, pray for him whilst he's annoying me. Strangely enough, I'm not annoyed anymore. But saying that, when I can, I avoid an interaction. I'm just saying sometimes you can work around it and sometimes not. It's a choice. Right now I'm trying to get a medical appointment and trying to push the right ammount but also bear in mind that they are busy and there's just been a doctor strike so.... trying to practice patience. 

Practising patience for patients. I wish I had more of these skills, I went to a Christian school and the values have definitely stayed with me. Church at the end of every school term and the little biscuit style bread always threw me because I thought “that’s not bread” and why is that kid drinking wine.