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Following diagnosis did you become more emotional?

Stuart333

Just wondering. Everyone's circumstances are different and the impact depends on past history.

I had my emotions battened down pretty tight. I went to a psychologist to find out why. It led to getting assessed and finding other things. The emotions were squashed as a way to cope, due to trauma and and due to childhood. You learn to mask and bulldoze  through things and ignore the stress.

I now am trying to feel more, but it mostly seems to involve trying to avoid crying. I think this is due to the other issues, not the autism itself. I think I am just being kinder to myself so have permission to notice them.

I think the diagnosis is more related to the feeling of disconnection, i.e. feeling a bit lost, which passed quite quickly. I think the rest is all the baggage.

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  • I didn’t feel much after my diagnosis, a slight shock but that shock didn’t register highly on any emotional scale, it raised more questions than answers as I am sure many can relate. It also helped to tick a few boxes but up until the moment of diagnosis I’d only felt I was “perhaps” autistic. A lot of people self identify but this wouldn’t have ever been enough for me, I need concrete evidence and I am still looking for it even with a positive result from the assessment. It sounds shallow and naive but I thought I’d think differently if I was on the spectrum, I thought I’d surely know if I was autistic. The notion only came about when I had some unusual and out of the routine behaviour, it came out in a way that I can only describe as another me dying to be let out, a kinder part of me broke out and gave the functioning me the rest I needed. Although I was struggling with high anxiety and insomnia something was telling me something wasn’t right. I let rip all I had been struggling with to my work, and went sick for 6 weeks, was given medication and signed off by the doctors before being referred for an assessment for autism. 

  • in reply to Autismman
    Autismman said:
    a kinder part of me broke out and gave the functioning me the rest I needed
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