Following diagnosis did you become more emotional?

Just wondering. Everyone's circumstances are different and the impact depends on past history.

I had my emotions battened down pretty tight. I went to a psychologist to find out why. It led to getting assessed and finding other things. The emotions were squashed as a way to cope, due to trauma and and due to childhood. You learn to mask and bulldoze  through things and ignore the stress.

I now am trying to feel more, but it mostly seems to involve trying to avoid crying. I think this is due to the other issues, not the autism itself. I think I am just being kinder to myself so have permission to notice them.

I think the diagnosis is more related to the feeling of disconnection, i.e. feeling a bit lost, which passed quite quickly. I think the rest is all the baggage.

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  • You learn to mask and bulldoze  through things and ignore the stress.

    That's a good way of putting it. Ignoring the stress was something that I picked up in childhood, I guess. I've been doing it all my life. I couldn't even recognise that I was feeling stressed until recently. Now I'm starting from scratch and finding out what things cause me stress and how I can deal with them.

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  • You learn to mask and bulldoze  through things and ignore the stress.

    That's a good way of putting it. Ignoring the stress was something that I picked up in childhood, I guess. I've been doing it all my life. I couldn't even recognise that I was feeling stressed until recently. Now I'm starting from scratch and finding out what things cause me stress and how I can deal with them.

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