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Graduation overshadowed by bad experiences at uni with ASD

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Hi just a random post because the community here is really helpful and I just can't stop myself from ruminating on all of this. I graduated a couple weeks ago and it was so underwhelming. I had no accommodations for my ASD so the whole day I was tired, anxious and stressed. The day was nothing like what I had imagined so I was just disappointed and I've been quite depressed since then. 

More importantly, since then I have constantly been seeing images of my peers posing in group photos with all their friends on their course etc. I just feel hyperaware of the fact that despite trying to socialise (joining sports, going out etc) I was unable to really make meaningful connections at uni, or at least not to the same extent as everyone else. I was bullied a bit and excluded at uni, and didn't have any disability support. I feel like a bit of a 'social failure' as I never managed to have the 'proper' uni experience. My graduation made me feel isolated rather than able to celebrate anything I'd done - I was so sad I even cried a couple times on the day lol. The whole situation is affecting me a lot more than it should and I just don't know how to go forward. 

Thank you :) 

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  • Hey. 

    I can personally relate to everything you have just said...except I haven't graduated yet. 

    I was also trying to socialise and do everything. Joined a sports society and a dance society. Despite extreme anxiety, made myself talk to others. That resulted in my mental health being torn to pieces. When the whole society turned on me because someone decided to get rid of me, and the university then made it worse, I had to go to the OIA to resolve the situation. When the OIA finally ruled against the university, I finally got closure. 

    I can't think about my graduation without shuddering, too. All that noise, the thought of being called out, it's awful. I do, however, have severe ADHD as well, so maybe that's why I'm not affected as much? 

    I didn't make many meaningful connections, either. My closest friend I met outside. She's truly amazing and wonderful and incredibly tolerant and helpful...but not on my course. In my time here, girls either hated me or lusted after me (which was almost as terrifying). I was friends with someone who then exploded and ruined many of my friendships. 

    Think of the graduation as a celebration of your academic acheivement. That's what its there for. I never went to university to socialise. I didn't even go there for my ultimate dream to come true (being in a relationship). I came to study. And studying is something we autistics are good at. 

    You're not a social failure if the university failed you like that. You're yourself, amazing and a graduate :)

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  • Hey. 

    I can personally relate to everything you have just said...except I haven't graduated yet. 

    I was also trying to socialise and do everything. Joined a sports society and a dance society. Despite extreme anxiety, made myself talk to others. That resulted in my mental health being torn to pieces. When the whole society turned on me because someone decided to get rid of me, and the university then made it worse, I had to go to the OIA to resolve the situation. When the OIA finally ruled against the university, I finally got closure. 

    I can't think about my graduation without shuddering, too. All that noise, the thought of being called out, it's awful. I do, however, have severe ADHD as well, so maybe that's why I'm not affected as much? 

    I didn't make many meaningful connections, either. My closest friend I met outside. She's truly amazing and wonderful and incredibly tolerant and helpful...but not on my course. In my time here, girls either hated me or lusted after me (which was almost as terrifying). I was friends with someone who then exploded and ruined many of my friendships. 

    Think of the graduation as a celebration of your academic acheivement. That's what its there for. I never went to university to socialise. I didn't even go there for my ultimate dream to come true (being in a relationship). I came to study. And studying is something we autistics are good at. 

    You're not a social failure if the university failed you like that. You're yourself, amazing and a graduate :)

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